My plan, is it as beautiful as I imagined it?

[hiiselfharm]

This is my whole plan, laid out and out there.
First, I will order my outfit, which I will pass away in. A white long-sleeved, long-skirt dress, a gold and white cross necklace, ruffled socks and white heeled-loafers. Before the outfit arrives, I'll go to the department store and buy 10mm rope, I am planning to make an excuse that my boyfriend sent me to buy something he needed, in case they get suspicious. Once the outfit arrives, I will wear it to school and go to school like normal. After school I'll take 1mg of Xanax and make my way to the woods, I'll go into it as deep as I can and then find a sturdy tree branch, I will create my knots, including the anchor, of course. I'll die surrounded by snow, in the cold and hanging. I plan on not writing any notes, except for my immediate family.
What do you think of my plan?

 

[dontlook]

It sounds straightforward and simple. A nice outfit

I'm sorry that it's come to this

 

[Hollowman]

Are you good at climbing trees? What will you stand on if you're even able to find a suitable branch to anchor the rope? In the winter it's hard to tell if branches are dead it could break and leave you very much alive but brain damaged.

 

[hiiselfharm]

It sounds straightforward and simple. A nice outfit

I'm sorry that it's come to this

Thank you. No need to feel sorry. It's all decided by the time we're born what we're going to have to do. It's been true to my fate. I'm a human being, too, and there were things I wanted to say, things I wanted to do, someone I liked or half liked anyway. But I knew nothing would come of it, so I gave up.
There's nothing in this world I'd regret leaving behind. If I can die even one day sooner, that'll be one day sooner I'll be at peace. As they say, dying is paradise, living is hell. I want to go to paradise just as soon as I can.

Are you good at climbing trees? What will you stand on if you're even able to find a suitable branch to anchor the rope?

Yeah, I know a place where the trees aren't all that high up, but high enough for full suspension. The branches are definitely enough to hold my weight. I'll most likely pull myself up by the branch with the noose around my neck and then let go.

 

[dontlook]

Thank you. No need to feel sorry. It's all decided by the time we're born what we're going to have to do. It's been true to my fate. I'm a human being, too, and there were things I wanted to say, things I wanted to do, someone I liked or half liked anyway. But I knew nothing would come of it, so I gave up.
There's nothing in this world I'd regret leaving behind. If I can die even one day sooner, that'll be one day sooner I'll be at peace. As they say, dying is paradise, living is hell. I want to go to paradise just as soon as I can.

I'm so glad to see that you seem to be at peace with everything, it must be a relief

I'm still struggling to decide what's right for me

 

[hiiselfharm]

Don't feel pressured to do something permanent, like suicide. Do what is right for you, think it through. Trust me, I've thought about this over and over. I tried everything, I mean everything. Psychiatrists, psychologists, medications, psychiatric hospitals, none of it helped me. But, it doesn't mean that they can't help you. I hope you find peace one way or another.

 

[cloudyskye]

Don't feel pressured to do something permanent, like suicide. Do what is right for you, think it through. Trust me, I've thought about this over and over. I tried everything, I mean everything. Psychiatrists, psychologists, medications, psychiatric hospitals, none of it helped me. But, it doesn't mean that they can't help you. I hope you find peace one way or another.

I have to ask where do you live that they would question you buying a rope and you have to say your boyfriend sent you?

 

[dontlook]

Don't feel pressured to do something permanent, like suicide. Do what is right for you, think it through. Trust me, I've thought about this over and over. I tried everything, I mean everything. Psychiatrists, psychologists, medications, psychiatric hospitals, none of it helped me. But, it doesn't mean that they can't help you. I hope you find peace one way or another.

Ohh I've been trying for years. Most of that, except being admitting to somewhere. Every year I ask myself why I haven't killed myself yet because it never seems to get better. Just trying to figure out when enough is enough. I hate living like this

 

[hiiselfharm]

I have to ask where do you live that they would question you buying a rope and you have to say your boyfriend sent you?

Well, I'm from Slovenia, but I don't think they'd actually question it, it's just rather me being paranoid about being found out.

Ohh I've been trying for years. Most of that, except being admitting to somewhere. Every year I ask myself why I haven't killed myself yet because it never seems to get better. Just trying to figure out when enough is enough. I hate living like this

I wish you good luck and fortune on your journey to paradise.

 

[cloudyskye]

Well, I'm from Slovenia, but I don't think they'd actually question it, it's just rather me being paranoid about being found out.

I get it. I hope you find your joy and peace.

 

[dontwakemeup]

It's you're plan, I hope you get the outcome you are looking for
Reminds me of the Evanescence song where Amy sings, "Look for me in the white Forrest, hiding in a hollow tree..come find me!"