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PaYo

Experienced
Jul 28, 2018
225
I was really briliant kid, i had IQ 133 when i was young, after growing i was 137. I was really brilliant compared to my folks. I had a future. At least i thought like that. But after some event i have lost all of it.

Right now i have 24/7 brain fog and problem with concentrating. People are stupid around me, everyone is so fucking dumb and shallow. Im very angry person because of it. I fell like i'm alone in this. There was a days when i wanted to fit in. So i started to behave stupid. Degenerate myself. Im sad, that i started drinking, but the most part im sad i started doing drugs.

I don't have bad life, i have money, government gives me enough to live. But the hardness of thinking. And problems with connect to people are so, so much a bagage that im not in comfort living like this anymore.

Right now i making an app. It is hard to develop this with such a concentrating problems, very hard. And this is my be or not to be. If i succeed i might be a millionaire (can also go to jail - its barely legal). Or i wont. Thats my future.

And happy past.
And by the way kids, intelligence often is compared to know what will happen after you do something and if will be bad preventing it from happening. This is baaaaad execution of intelligence. People will hate it in you, they wont understand why, you behave like you do. They wont know consequences of they own behaves. They think they want it. People need to makes mistakes, they need to feel trapped and they need fight and struggle to be alive. Deprivate ing them from this kind of experience will lead to loneliness.

And you will hate yourself for this.

The best usage if inteligence, the best roadi think is to make mistakes, and live with it. When you know everything. You will never lose a key, always remember everything from shop list and be perfect. And somehow,you will be - invisible to others.
 
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Polka

Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
People are stupid around me, everyone is so fucking dumb and shallow. Im very angry person because of it. I fell like i'm alone in this.

It is better to be smarter but there are costs involved. Use your intelligence to train yourself to fit in and to understand why people are the way they are.

They will not change nor are they capable of doing so.

In addition there are people above you who might consider you in the same manner.
 
GottaGo

GottaGo

Member
Jan 27, 2020
29
I'm a pretty bright person too. Not as smart as you are but definitely above average. I finished engineering school at a pretty great college and started tech startup that had investors interested in it. My way of coping with not able to "fit in" is doing art. It's hard to define art so it makes me feel like I'm closer to people around me and the sense of identity. I started doing art thinking I can live happily as a normal person but now I'm genuinely enjoying it. Maybe it's worth a try for you.
Another downside of being the "bright kid" is I never needed to try really hard for things. Grades, exam, compliment, etc. So I don't get the fulfillment when I accomplish something. I wonder if you feel the same?
Kind of feel like us humans are pretty basic in this way. If we don't feel accomplished, we kind of just feel numb. Hope you can find peace with yourself :))
 

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