Method my rope is here (FSH)

[helloandbye1]

I ordered a rope after reading several threads about hanging (both partial and full) and its finally here. I have a metal bar in my closet that I've checked several times but of course I'm gonna check it again, this time with a rope (safely).
I feel so relieved. I'm gonna be alone for a few days in the beginning of January and I'm planning to ctb during that time. I feel content. There are still lingering feelings of guilt towards my family but the urge of ending it all is stronger. I just want to be free of this world but mostly, of myself.

 

[dontlook]

It's a weird feeling when you hold the thing that will probably kill you. I'm going fsh as well but I just need to make sure I'm really ready. Idk. I might keep trying for a little while

I hope things go smoothly for you and if you want to talk I'm happy to

 

[helloandbye1]

It's a weird feeling when you hold the thing that will probably kill you. I'm going fsh as well but I just need to make sure I'm really ready. Idk. I might keep trying for a little while

I hope things go smoothly for you and if you want to talk I'm happy to

I get it, I need to make sure I'm ready too. I really hope I am and that I can finally become free sooner than later.
Thank you for your kind words

 

[newstart2000]

After researching, partial hanging is my favourite method to CTB. I feel sorry for my family as well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand just wanting to be finally free from it all, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.