Story My SO is okay with the overall idea surprisingly

[SuiSqueeze92]

I was just recently kinda surprised when she randomly had said that she would understand the reasons why if I ever did go that route. Anyone else have that "strange?" support?

 

[BPD Barbie]

Only from here, nobody close to me outside of here feels like that sadly. You're very lucky to have someone like that

 

[SuiSqueeze92]

Only from here, nobody close to me outside of here feels like that sadly. You're very lucky to have someone like that

Yeah she's had a rough life as well, I'd imagine that helps but it just showed me that she would even consider that option for me as an escape from the pain. And we're not married yet so I didn't normally go to my usual "you're just trying to get my benefits" shit.

And I see you're active again on here :) I think of you as the tatted up hands chick lol only makes me wonder what others think of me :P might have shown my ass once or twice. But glad you're still around fellow BPD'er? Lol

 

[serah]

It must be amazing to have that kind of support from someone. Consider yourself very lucky! My family is mostly unaware of my suicidal thoughts and my friends aren't the most supportive when it comes to depression and my struggle with suicidal ideation.

 

[SuiSqueeze92]

It must be amazing to have that kind of support from someone. Consider yourself very lucky! My family is mostly unaware of my suicidal thoughts and my friends aren't the most supportive when it comes to depression and my struggle with suicidal ideation.

It is really, not just with that but with everything else, she just feels her problems are inadequate compared to mine... which I hate because she's supposed to be the one that is thought of first or given that special attention, but her reply is that she's okay with that because she's used to it and hasn't had anyone ever worth to better receive that care. Hurt my heart a little but at the same time felt the love and didn't really know what to say, I'm just a needy bitch I guess? Lol

 

[a.n.kirillov]

How did it make you feel?

A very close friend of mine was respectful of my decision, which has relieved me greatly.

 

[Bct]

Wow, you're very lucky to have someone who supports your decision

 

[Walilamdzi]

Yeah she's had a rough life as well, I'd imagine that helps but it just showed me that she would even consider that option for me as an escape from the pain. And we're not married yet so I didn't normally go to my usual "you're just trying to get my benefits" shit.

And I see you're active again on here :) I think of you as the tatted up hands chick lol only makes me wonder what others think of me :P might have shown my ass once or twice. But glad you're still around fellow BPD'er? Lol

How would someone get your benefits when you die? Like assets?

 

[BeeLoyal]

It must be amazing to have that kind of support from someone. Consider yourself very lucky! My family is mostly unaware of my suicidal thoughts and my friends aren't the most supportive when it comes to depression and my struggle with suicidal ideation.

Dude yea I feel you I had two friends one of them became my worst nightmare and is the biggest traitor ever, one of the reasons why I can only think about ctbing. The other one has no interest in having CLOSE friendships, he is just a person to care for his work and hobbies, but not his friends. And depression is an unknown word to him (metaphorically)

 

[enjolras]

Is it support or just being realistic. It validates your troubles are not made up and understood in their complexity. It's not help but no less nice if she's not responsible of your reasons. She kind of splits the burden with you, even if not offering solutions. It could be much more terrible. Should you find it curious ? Maybe she feels helpless, or accepting the situation as it is now (life). It seems an expression of shy love, not weird.

 

[SuiSqueeze92]

How did it make you feel?

A very close friend of mine was respectful of my decision, which has relieved me greatly.

A bit odd really, but at the same time knowing that someone from the outside could say "I'd understand" without knowing the internals all of the time, made me wonder just how much shit projects from within. I also feel I'm repeating history with my father, he basically got a chick pregnant with a girl and he died to leave one last thing behind. and I've had those talks as well.

 

[FusRohDracarys]

Ah, you're quite lucky. I've never met anyone like that IRL. Someone I was best friends with at the time reported me before a suicide attempt. My partner now has also been guilt tripping with telling me how if I did anything to hurt myself, they would be forever scarred and broken and also reminding me how selfish suicide is.