My story briefly plus questions

[jackdotty]

Hi everyone,

I'm a 36 year old male living in the UK. For 30 years or so my problems were only mild to moderate, but at 31 I went through some things that worsened my underlying mental health conditions and acquired a brain injury. Since 2020 I can no longer work, am barely able to take care of myself or leave the house. I just spend most of my time in a small room trying to endure extreme symptoms of mental illness and a neurological injury. I am lucky to live with family and don't have to work as I have received support from the government the past 4 years. That being said I'm living a quality of life that is so far below what I would deem acceptable, and have tried every relevant intervention in regards to my numerous conditions with no improvement whatsoever. I plan on ending things before too long, in a manner that's the least traumatic for myself and whoever may find me.

Questions, I'm looking at either going abroard or online through the dark web to buy Nembutal/pentobarbital. Does anyone know or have any experience with acquiring this drug. Also I'm looking at leaving in the most peaceful way possible, I am reading on here a lot about sodium nitrate ingestion. Is it a terribly painful way to go?

Thank you to anyone who has read this , will answer any questions asked aswell.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing but anyway I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Questions, I'm looking at either going abroard or online through the dark web to buy Nembutal/pentobarbital. Does anyone know or have any experience with acquiring this drug. Also I'm looking at leaving in the most peaceful way possible, I am reading on here a lot about sodium nitrate ingestion. Is it a terribly painful way to go?

Welcome to the forum! I'm sorry you have to go through this.

To acquire N you have to travel to South America and in Person. All online offers are scam.

SN is a relatively peaceful way but you will need to follow the protocol strictly for the best chances to succeed.

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[jackdotty]

Welcome to the forum! I'm sorry you have to go through this.

To acquire N you have to travel to South America and in Person. All online offers are scam.

SN is a relatively peaceful way but you will need to follow the protocol strictly for the best chances to succeed.

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SN Bible Sodium Nitrite Method (Comprehensive Guide SN Method)

Sodium Nitrite (SN) Method Introduction This document is a compilation of different sn information, members inputs, important posts related to sn, recorded suicide cases related to sn, different research on sn and so on. This document also give a full understanding of SN, what it is, how it...

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Thank you very much for your help!

 

[Romanticize]

I would advise you a few things:
1. Nembutal is not present on the market anymore. Even on darkweb you will encounter 99,9% scams. You can get it almost exclusively from a trusted vet, and he will be putting his career and freedom at risk, because every even smallest amount of N is closely monitored.
2. SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available
3. In my opinion, the best method if you're willing to enter darkweb, is heavy OD on opioids+benzos.

 

[jackdotty]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing but anyway I hope that you find the freedom you search for, best wishes.

I would advise you a few things:
1. Nembutal is not present on the market anymore. Even on darkweb you will encounter 99,9% scams. You can get it almost exclusively from a trusted vet, and he will be putting his career and freedom at risk, because every even smallest amount of N is closely monitored.
2. SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available
3. In my opinion, the best method if you're willing to enter darkweb, is heavy OD on opioids+benzos.

I would advise you a few things:
1. Nembutal is not present on the market anymore. Even on darkweb you will encounter 99,9% scams. You can get it almost exclusively from a trusted vet, and he will be putting his career and freedom at risk, because every even smallest amount of N is closely monitored.
2. SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available
3. In my opinion, the best method if you're willing to enter darkweb, is heavy OD on opioids+benzos.

Ok I was under the assumption although it would be difficult to get the dark web would have trusted sellers but that is good to know.
Thanks for the info, much appreciated

 

[I_go_in]

I would advise you a few things:
1. Nembutal is not present on the market anymore. Even on darkweb you will encounter 99,9% scams. You can get it almost exclusively from a trusted vet, and he will be putting his career and freedom at risk, because every even smallest amount of N is closely monitored.
2. SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available
3. In my opinion, the best method if you're willing to enter darkweb, is heavy OD on opioids+benzos.

>SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available

Could you elaborate? Not trying to be a dick just wondering for my personal knowledge as I've only seen ball fanning of the method so far here. Was thinking about this method.

Also, if N is literally straight up the only way you're going to try and end yourself why not just rob a vet? It's physically there is it not? I know you could go to prison but if you're desperate then it sounds like with precautions you could get it done. And no I'm not advocating crime just saying that there's ways to get it (unless it's just not used anymore and I don't know it because I haven't been on suicide forums since before 2020 when it was available).

 

[skatergirl]

Thank you very much for your help!

You seem like a lovely person I'm getting good vibes from you

Thank you very much for your help!

Hwo

>SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available

Could you elaborate? Not trying to be a dick just wondering for my personal knowledge as I've only seen ball fanning of the method so far here. Was thinking about this method.

Also, if N is literally straight up the only way you're going to try and end yourself why not just rob a vet? It's physically there is it not? I know you could go to prison but if you're desperate then it sounds like with precautions you could get it done. And no I'm not advocating crime just saying that there's ways to get it (unless it's just not used anymore and I don't know it because I haven't been on suicide forums since before 2020 when it was available).

how do u know sn is painful others say different ?

 

[divinemistress36]

36 I have a brain injury to I understand the pain <3

 

[maniac116]

I'm so sorry that you're suffering.
Pentobarbital is almost non existent at this point.
It's still used, mostly in veterinary medicine but is in short supply. A few people on this forum have gone to other countries & got lucky but overall it's not very available.
Don't buy it on the internet!!!! You WILL be ripped off!!! I wish I had better news for you

 

[jackdotty]

>SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available

Could you elaborate? Not trying to be a dick just wondering for my personal knowledge as I've only seen ball fanning of the method so far here. Was thinking about this method.

Also, if N is literally straight up the only way you're going to try and end yourself why not just rob a vet? It's physically there is it not? I know you could go to prison but if you're desperate then it sounds like with precautions you could get it done. And no I'm not advocating crime just saying that there's ways to get it (unless it's just not used anymore and I don't know it because I haven't been on suicide forums since before 2020 when it was available).

I don't think I would rob a vet, if it were literally the only way to be successful then sure but would rather go with other methods

36 I have a brain injury to I understand the pain <3

Ahh sorry to hear that. They are a strange thing to try to contend with.

I'm so sorry that you're suffering.
Pentobarbital is almost non existent at this point.
It's still used, mostly in veterinary medicine but is in short supply. A few people on this forum have gone to other countries & got lucky but overall it's not very available.
Don't buy it on the internet!!!! You WILL be ripped off!!! I wish I had better news for you

Yes I am hearing that from everyone. It's def a shame but is good to know.
Thank you!

 

[Qimaster]

I would advise you a few things:
1. Nembutal is not present on the market anymore. Even on darkweb you will encounter 99,9% scams. You can get it almost exclusively from a trusted vet, and he will be putting his career and freedom at risk, because every even smallest amount of N is closely monitored.
2. SN is not as peaceful as described, i'd advise against it, unless you don't have other methods available
3. In my opinion, the best method if you're willing to enter darkweb, is heavy OD on opioids+benzos.

Im not sure if its ok to mention but a guy named Joe CTBed using SN and as far as what his friend recorded, it was a peaceful exit.

As for ODing, I have seen others say OD doesn't really do enough damage and wouldn't be an ideal option for people who want to be absolutely sure their attempt will work once and for all (like me)

 

[Qimaster]

To acquire N you have to travel to South America and in Person. All online offers are scam.

Where in South america? Ive read some people say Peru but that was a while ago and I'm not sure if its still available anymore. Where can I find the latest and exact location?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Where in South america? Ive read some people say Peru but that was a while ago and I'm not sure if its still available anymore. Where can I find the latest and exact location?

I've got no other info, too. I'm sorry.

 

[Qimaster]

I've got no other info, too. I'm sorry.

That's alright.