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benjamind2020
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- Sep 18, 2020
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I thought I'd tell my story here but because it's just too long I'd just provide a link to it instead:
www.bluelight.org
Here's hoping that someone understands what I went through. I am still in recovery even though this happened at the end of June...I guess we all recover in our own time. It is frustrating living with some kind of PTSD due to being so close to ending it. I know that psychiatrists will want to throw antipsychotics at me but I know they are useless cuz they make me feel worse. I wish there were something to make me feel better other than alcohol, oxycodone or Rivotril. Surely there has to be something...but alas I've looked so hard and have yet to come up with anything other than MDMA therapy but "too novel" even though it works so it's not available in Australia due to ideological (read: political) reasons.
Scared - My story...
This horrid nightmare began on the morning 26th June when I woke up with what seemed like a blocked right ear and some mild nausea. I tried to pop my ears as usual by drinking a glass of water and that didn't help. I noticed there was a ringing when I heard any sound coming through that ear. I...

Here's hoping that someone understands what I went through. I am still in recovery even though this happened at the end of June...I guess we all recover in our own time. It is frustrating living with some kind of PTSD due to being so close to ending it. I know that psychiatrists will want to throw antipsychotics at me but I know they are useless cuz they make me feel worse. I wish there were something to make me feel better other than alcohol, oxycodone or Rivotril. Surely there has to be something...but alas I've looked so hard and have yet to come up with anything other than MDMA therapy but "too novel" even though it works so it's not available in Australia due to ideological (read: political) reasons.