lavenderlilylies
Member
- Sep 24, 2024
- 68
this semester is nearly over. if i get the grades i'm expecting, my gpa will drop a 0.01, if not more. and getting second class honors will certainly be out of reach.
i've worked so hard, i've worked so fucking hard. with the little to no motivation and energy i had in me, i still gave it my all, and my all is still not enough.
the "i could've worked harder" eats me up but realistically, what more could i have done? even when i couldn't pull myself out of bed i still tried my best from there. this is the only thing i still care about. if i don't get it, what do i have to live for?
i'm currently only 0.04 gpa points away. it seems so little. and it would be if i was smarter or could work harder. but i'm not and i can't. i don't even want it for my future career, i know it doesn't really matter. i just wanted to achieve this thing for myself and to make my parents proud. but i'll always be a disappointment.
i've worked so hard, i've worked so fucking hard. with the little to no motivation and energy i had in me, i still gave it my all, and my all is still not enough.
the "i could've worked harder" eats me up but realistically, what more could i have done? even when i couldn't pull myself out of bed i still tried my best from there. this is the only thing i still care about. if i don't get it, what do i have to live for?
i'm currently only 0.04 gpa points away. it seems so little. and it would be if i was smarter or could work harder. but i'm not and i can't. i don't even want it for my future career, i know it doesn't really matter. i just wanted to achieve this thing for myself and to make my parents proud. but i'll always be a disappointment.
