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midstarscream

midstarscream

Life is a sexually transmitted terminal disease.
Nov 1, 2024
36
This is it. I can't do it anymore. I am sick of having to live up to society's standards and expectations. I don't see the point in living any more. Nothing really excites me. I tried getting back to my old hobbies, in one last hopeful attempt. I am too afraid. Life has already screwed me over, and I want to say "f*ck you" to life. I am DONE.

I have 500g of extra pure SN (97-98% purity touted) and I have tramadol and domperidone tablets. What is the best AE? Also, is 30g SN a good bet? I'm 165-170 pounds ish and a decently big dude.

If everything goes right I want to get done with this by Christmas.

Here is my routine:

7:30 am: domperidone 10mg

12:30 pm: domperidone 10mg

7:30 pm: domperidone 10mg, tramadol sustained release 75mg

9:30 pm: Pregabalin 75mg sustained release + tramadol 75mg sustained release + domperidone 10mg + 5mg SN in 50ml water

10:30 pm: One last goodbye to my friends and family

10:40 pm: 30mg SN in 100ml water + tramadol 75mg

Is this foolproof?
 
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gabworse

gabworse

it will never stop
Feb 25, 2024
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I hope this choice of yours will lead you to something worthwhile.

see you on the other side.
 
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HerculePoirot

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You need 30 GRAMS of SN, not mg.
 
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midstarscream

midstarscream

Life is a sexually transmitted terminal disease.
Nov 1, 2024
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No nausea?
Not really. Just feel drowsy. Although I have heard tramadol causes nausea. I'll maybe restrict myself to 150mg tramadol totally.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

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Imo not good to take 5 g sn. It's either 30 g or nothing.
 
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Not really. Just feel drowsy. Although I have heard tramadol causes nausea. I'll maybe restrict myself to 150mg tramadol totally.

Good luck then with whatever choice you make.
 
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Why? Dosent more SN equate to a higher chance of full absorption into the body?
5 g is even more unknown what it does maybe increase nausea vomiting. The cases I've seen here and in pph started with 25 to 35 grams.
 
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midstarscream

midstarscream

Life is a sexually transmitted terminal disease.
Nov 1, 2024
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5 g is even more unknown what it does maybe increase nausea. The cases I've seen here and in pph started with 25 to 35 grams.
What happens if I take 30g twice?

I do not want to botch this up. I'm physically quite big so I'm resistant to the effects of drugs.
 
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FuneralCry

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I also personally see no point to it all as well, I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.
 
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TAW122

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I wish you peace for whatever you choose to do and I hope things will work out in your favor. :hug:
 
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ForestGhost

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The ocean washed over your grave
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What happens if I take 30g twice?

I do not want to botch this up. I'm physically quite big so I'm resistant to the effects of drugs.
If you weigh under 100 kgs, 25 grams is the recommended dosage. 30 is fine but you're already at the point of diminishing returns there. A second dose is only needed as "insurance" if you *really* wretch up the first dose, but from what I've read from the documented SN CTBs, even the majority of people who throw up extensively still usually pass from just one glass alone.
 
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If you weigh under 100 kgs, 25 grams is the recommended dosage. 30 is fine but you're already at the point of diminishing returns there. A second dose is only needed as "insurance" if you *really* wretch up the first dose, but from what I've read from the documented SN CTBs, even the majority of people who throw up extensively still usually pass from just one glass alone.
What about differences in purity? Mine is 97+%, and not 98+% like most other ones here. I know simple math would mean that I need 31g instead of 30g (effectively no change) but is it really that way? I won't need 40g or something right? Just making sure…
 
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What about differences in purity? Mine is 97+%, and not 98+% like most other ones here. I know simple math would mean that I need 31g instead of 30g (effectively no change) but is it really that way? I won't need 40g or something right? Just making sure…
Yeah I think you're probably fine! Like you said, pretty miniscule difference that shouldn't affect the outcome.
 
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Oct 19, 2024
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Sending you wishes of peace and all the best, regardless of whether you are here or already beyond.✨
 
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