my mind gets so confusing. my thoughts convince me i want to kill myself, but i am so young i have so much future and promise, i just deal with people in my mind that want me to die and want me to be in pain. i have been to the hospital 20 fucking times. at this point in my life i'm young, attractive, have some decent friends. my mind just never stops. i just want to help others, especially animals. that's what i want to do with my life is stop the suffering of others but i cannot stop the suffering in my own mind. it's subconcious. these people in my mind hate me and want to hurt me and torment me and won't leave me alone. i first tried to kill myself when i was 6. i'm almost 19 now. is there anything that can help? i've had countless therapy so it's not helpful to mention it.
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About_to_Go
It deepens like a coastal shelf
- Mar 20, 2018
- 303
I see that you said you've been to therapy. Have you been to a psychiatrist?
About_to_Go
It deepens like a coastal shelf
- Mar 20, 2018
- 303
I'm not sure what else you can do. It sounds like you're doing all the right things by going to therapy and seeing a psychiatrist– you should be proud of that! I hope that you can find peace soon, however that may be.
felix
Experienced
- Jan 25, 2019
- 257
I've been in the hospital 6 times. How much debt do u have?
DownInaHole
Not so wise
- Jan 4, 2019
- 216
I can relate.
My mind (almost?) never stops. I've come to appreciate that trait though.
Have you tried Kratom? It can relax you.
My mind (almost?) never stops. I've come to appreciate that trait though.
Have you tried Kratom? It can relax you.
Eren
Si hablas español mándame un MP
- Oct 27, 2018
- 1,073
In my point of view you have to be sure before CTB, before the doubt better wait.
As for therapy, have you tried other psychotherapists? Maybe you've found unprofessional psychotherapists.
Hugs.
As for therapy, have you tried other psychotherapists? Maybe you've found unprofessional psychotherapists.
Hugs.
LastDay
Soon, my dear big sister
- Dec 29, 2018
- 103
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
i do have trama but i have no memory of what happened. and therapists cant help me with that. what about kratom? can you tell me your expierences with it
21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
- 1,624
We have a lot in common. I like to help others too, though I work with the elderly instead of animals (although some of them behave like animals sometimes...)
Being attractive, being smart, being kind... the most broken people always have the most beautiful qualities.
What helped me was working with those elderly people. Maybe if you found a job where you could help animals like you said you want to, that could help you feel better.
felix
Experienced
- Jan 25, 2019
- 257
21Neberg
Enlightened
- Dec 17, 2018
- 1,624
If you truly don't have any of those (which I don't believe...) I'm sure you have other great qualities Felix!
felix
Experienced
- Jan 25, 2019
- 257
Macc Lad
Specialist
- Jan 22, 2019
- 300
My heart goes out to you.....always find it so sad when someone so young wants to end it......but i do understand! x
You have a strong desire to live. That much is obvious (only my opinion). Counselling can only accomplish so much, I strongly believe psychiatry would be the better option.
