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MyTimeIsUp
Perhaps I'll be important when I'm long gone?
- Feb 27, 2024
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Hey everyone, this is my first post. This is to prevent others making a mistake or telling someone how you feel. Trust me, you WILL regret it instantly.
I told someone how I felt, not the mental health team or anything. Anyway, the crisis team came out, they recommend hospital, I refused hospital. Two psychiatrists (the female was AWFUL) came to assess me with a social worker. Put me under section (it is lawful and if you refuse they are LEGALLY allowed to use any force to take you (so I complied). Waited about 12 hours so I was up all night. A private ambulance took me (mental health nurses) and they were lovely.
They CAN forcibly give you drugs (by LAW) under this section (2). You do not get a say in ANYTHING. Don't expect anyone to care. Expect to express yourself but no one cares, especially the mean male doctors (female here so far, they are lovely)
The ward... lmfao. No privacy. Literally. Staff barely say two words to me. I am watched 24/7. I need my music to keep me calm, but I have nothing wireless so I am expected to stare at the same four walls.
Staff don't care. Staff don't care I've become a different person in here. Staff don't give a shit about you. No one does.
I will now pretend I'm fine. The first thing I'll do is kill myself when I get out. I am not mentally ill, I am a traumatised person.
Be prepared to be watched everything you do, even sleeping..everything. I'm lucky to have my bedroom door open ajar with staff there, and no bathroom door but, the bathroom door is just over half a door and it is magnetic (NOT A DOOR). Staff every 2 or 3 mins will call your name if you're quiet, so make a sound regularly. I couldn't piss for 6 hours. Some people are within arms length, so if you need a shit.. you are FUCKED. I am not eating so that won't happen (I'd recommend fasting before you come in).
I have to have tablets to knock me out to sleep, because noises freak me out and having someone there... this is a trauma response but they don't care. Oh and by the way, this is also a private hospital where famous people have stayed. Lol. Deadly serious. There is no treatment. One doctor is lovely, the rest are AWFUL, really cold and MEAN.
No one cares how I'm being treated. But hey, I'll be out in 27 days (they can hold you for longer under section 3).
Fake it till you make it. Seriously. They're now starting to trust me after two days, so that's nice.
I will NEVER trust a soul again(already have severe trust issues).
Ask me any questions:-) I'm in the UK.
There are different types of suicide watch and I know them all now, so ask away
I told someone how I felt, not the mental health team or anything. Anyway, the crisis team came out, they recommend hospital, I refused hospital. Two psychiatrists (the female was AWFUL) came to assess me with a social worker. Put me under section (it is lawful and if you refuse they are LEGALLY allowed to use any force to take you (so I complied). Waited about 12 hours so I was up all night. A private ambulance took me (mental health nurses) and they were lovely.
They CAN forcibly give you drugs (by LAW) under this section (2). You do not get a say in ANYTHING. Don't expect anyone to care. Expect to express yourself but no one cares, especially the mean male doctors (female here so far, they are lovely)
The ward... lmfao. No privacy. Literally. Staff barely say two words to me. I am watched 24/7. I need my music to keep me calm, but I have nothing wireless so I am expected to stare at the same four walls.
Staff don't care. Staff don't care I've become a different person in here. Staff don't give a shit about you. No one does.
I will now pretend I'm fine. The first thing I'll do is kill myself when I get out. I am not mentally ill, I am a traumatised person.
Be prepared to be watched everything you do, even sleeping..everything. I'm lucky to have my bedroom door open ajar with staff there, and no bathroom door but, the bathroom door is just over half a door and it is magnetic (NOT A DOOR). Staff every 2 or 3 mins will call your name if you're quiet, so make a sound regularly. I couldn't piss for 6 hours. Some people are within arms length, so if you need a shit.. you are FUCKED. I am not eating so that won't happen (I'd recommend fasting before you come in).
I have to have tablets to knock me out to sleep, because noises freak me out and having someone there... this is a trauma response but they don't care. Oh and by the way, this is also a private hospital where famous people have stayed. Lol. Deadly serious. There is no treatment. One doctor is lovely, the rest are AWFUL, really cold and MEAN.
No one cares how I'm being treated. But hey, I'll be out in 27 days (they can hold you for longer under section 3).
Fake it till you make it. Seriously. They're now starting to trust me after two days, so that's nice.
I will NEVER trust a soul again(already have severe trust issues).
Ask me any questions:-) I'm in the UK.
There are different types of suicide watch and I know them all now, so ask away