New and need Help

[cammanozima]

Hello everyone sorry I am a new member in this place so I want to tell a little about my anxiety and Why I became a Misanthrope because of How selfish humans I have faced for the past 6 years, especially my mother. I am tired of my life for the past 6 years I feel trapped because I am always in a private school that is not free regarding learning and friendship which causes limitations in skills and also insights needed in everyday life plus I live in the third world Where in terms of GDP per capita and economy and social structure are not as good as all of you I am also confused because for the past few months or more precisely 5 months ago I had a history of a teribble illness where I had appendix problems and I also had difficulty identifying related to diseases in the spine because I made a wrong choice where I tried to go to orthopedics but it didn't make my back better and when I felt weak and sick I was forced to go to college in the city of I don't know where. I mean you could say I live in a capital city and moved to a town where From end to end It was as if I was thrown away And stripped of responsibility and I was forced to attend college even though in the end I skipped too but I was also confused because there was no social help or enough Money that could help me.I can only survive on the monthly money my father gives me for food and a room. I was also confused because my health care in this country was not as good as what I thought so my health didn't get better while my mental health couldn't stand it because my mother was extravagant and I was upset to the point where I didn't know what to do anymore. I want to ask for help if you have a solution to my problem.

but if not,can you help me to find a way to Ctb that is affordable and also Painless or make a tier list related to that I would be very grateful if you could make it.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

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[Hvergelmir]

I want to ask for help if you have a solution to my problem.

It's not clear what the nature of your current immediate problem is, or what you want.

The suicide resources are great to end things, but I think you might want to elaborate on the alternatives and what's holding you back.
Are your health problems and failed college really preventing you from having a decent life? Or is it more about lack of faith in society, yourself, and humanity at large?

 

[cammanozima]

It's not clear what the nature of your current immediate problem is, or what you want.

The suicide resources are great to end things, but I think you might want to elaborate on the alternatives and what's holding you back.
Are your health problems and failed college really preventing you from having a decent life? Or is it more about lack of faith in society, yourself, and humanity at large?

I'm sorry to not elaborate any further and maybe I'm typing in the wrong sub.
Humanity has a bad thing from the start(it just me complaining myself).

once i had an experience where I managed to manipulate my parents to make everything much better and having a decent live until 1 year ago when i tried to prep collage exam,i got to much comfortable and lovin it. However, at one point, a bully disrupted my focus and peace of mind while studying. This made me lose control over my influence, and I felt exhausted and lost it cuz i never make this far,also i had a recall paper to counter every single people and environtment to get my goal to live independent.but that paper was get washed.So at that one year im on auto pilot mode and even i got to the collage the cost is my body.also i kinda feel very weird with my body its just I feel pain in my stomach but because of my back problem I am numb and can still think straight and not feel anything but it feels really bad because I don't feel anything.

But on the other hand, I believe that I can do it again—I just don't know where to start.(i know you will not give me the answer beside the method)

I see a lot of method on this sub that actually not instant too,atleast below 1-2 minutes besides firearm (there's a price for everything,but can you atleast give me example that close to that) EDIT:Just In case i need it if i lose hope

also kind feel there's a hypocrite in this community where you do bad to yourself and have a manipulative guide for that but why there's no guide to do bad things to make a better life??(okay maybe it's just me does't accept my condition)

 

[Overwhelmed52]

It sounds like you are in the midst of some pretty bad things. It is hard when the people closest to you do not look out for you. Keep writing down your feelings so you can try to figure out what you would like to happen.

 

[Hvergelmir]

I see a lot of method on this sub that actually not instant too,atleast below 1-2 minutes besides firearm (there's a price for everything,but can you atleast give me example that close to that) EDIT:Just In case i need it if i lose hope

Sure. Long drop hanging and decapitation would both fit your criteria. But you could have found that by yourself...

also kind feel there's a hypocrite in this community where you do bad to yourself and have a manipulative guide for that but why there's no guide to do bad things to make a better life??

The focus of the forum is suicide, and related areas - ranging from recovery and therapy, to self harm and drugs.
If you find "manipulative" guides I think you should point them out, and raise a discussion about it.

It's rather hard to make a better life by making "bad things" to others.
I guess you could buy skimmed cards off some tor-site, or reach out to a local criminal organization for a career there. I think there's simply no demand for such guides here. There are however other forums dedicated to such endeavors.
If you want to sort your life out, the recovery section of this forum is far more likely to help.