no more secrets

[Life_and_Death]

he wants to know everything. says he wants to understand me better. i hope knowing what i think doesnt hurt him.

i wanted to say more but lately i can only seem to find a few sentences to describe whats wrong.

 

[MichaelNomad123]

Good luck.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Good luck.

i told him we'd try to for a little while to see how he handles it. who knows it might be good for me too lol

 

[MichaelNomad123]

i told him we'd try to for a little while to see how he handles it. who knows it might be good for me too lol

Perhaps so. Be careful.

 

[Life_and_Death]

Perhaps so. Be careful.

he already knows "everything" the basics. my past that brought me to this point. i keep him updated on my appointments and whatnot. but as far as my thought process and how all my disorders come together to make the inside what it is, he can paint a picture based on what i tell him and my reactions to things but its kind of a blurry picture or a puzzle with missing pieces. plus id trust him with anything

 

[MichaelNomad123]

he already knows "everything" the basics. my past that brought me to this point. i keep him updated on my appointments and whatnot. but as far as my thought process and how all my disorders come together to make the inside what it is, he can paint a picture based on what i tell him and my reactions to things but its kind of a blurry picture or a puzzle with missing pieces. plus id trust him with anything

If you trust him with anything, then that seems like a very positive sign! My piece of unsolicited advice is to live with him, not for him. You want to avoid the scenario that things don't work out and you are left with nothing. Otherwise, have at it buddy.

 

[Life_and_Death]

If you trust him with anything, then that seems like a very positive sign! My piece of unsolicited advice is to live with him, not for him. You want to avoid the scenario that things don't work out and you are left with nothing. Otherwise, have at it buddy.

he wont ever leave me. i cant even beg him to abandon me lol. he just already worries enough as it is without knowing all of the scary thoughts in my head, im scared how its going to effect him mentally.

i know about the whole "living for other people" thing. but him, my brothers and my grampy need me. although i really like your advice. to emotionally live with them but to keep in mind that i come first and to worry about my own mental health and whatnot, even if that means i feel death is whats best for me.

 

[Deleted member 22624]

I think it's the best thing you can do, and he'll appreciate it. It might eventually get too hard for him to handle by himself but there will be more than enough opportunity to hold back a bit. Now seems like a good time to help him help you, I'm sure it's what he'd want

 

[Life_and_Death]

I think it's the best thing you can do, and he'll appreciate it. It might eventually get too hard for him to handle by himself but there will be more than enough opportunity to hold back a bit. Now seems like a good time to help him help you, I'm sure it's what he'd want

yeah, thats probably basically what hes looking for lol :)