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AlmondButterSmoothie

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Jan 15, 2020
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i don't care that no one cares about me. it just feels a little lonely. the very people who are supposed to protect me, end up insulting me and making fun of me. i don't feel like any amount of money could offer me love. there is also not much to love about me. i basically just live to survive and i am ok with that.

i have food and shelter that will help me get by until my final days.

for now, i will just allow all of this to sink in. and secretly hope that things will get better in the future.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
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Sorry to read you are feeling this way :( the ones who are supposed to be there for us, are often the ones that hurt us the most, as they believe no matter what you will still always be there, so feel their behaviour is OK,
its bullshit and so very very wrong
 
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timf

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Mar 26, 2020
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You've done good to be able to distance yourself from those who would hurt you.

1. Stop the pain.
2. Allow for healing.
3. Build something positive.

You might be entering stage 2. Here truth can be beneficial. As we look at the world there are a few really good people and a few really bad people. Most of us are in the middle. In a way feeling bad about yourself may be a residual effect from assessments given to you buy toxic people, especially from family members that can leave a deep impression.

Meeting people who will care about you is difficult. Modern society excells in the superficial. However, getting past those who are hostile to you is a good first step.
 
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Cashewmilk

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Mar 10, 2020
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No one truly cares about anyone but themselves. Know that fact, it's simply human nature.
 
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OhRoseThouArtSick

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Jan 13, 2019
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I'm sorry :(. I feel that way a lot too. I understand that the reason the people in my life haven't been able to care for me is because they're not able to care for themselves. I can intellectualize it.. but it still cuts me up inside.
 

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