I'm fairly new to this site, but so grateful it is here. I can't discuss my feelings with anyone without them calling the cops or thinking I'm out of my mind. Thank you mods.
I am older than most on the site (after reading numerous chats). I've no family and no one close to me. At one time I had friends (or so I thought), but they turned out to be users who didn't care at all. I'm an empath which is a huge part of my problem. I care too much for people who are in pain (whether physical or emotional). I've been duped by so many liars I could write a book. I'm now at a point in my life where I hate everything. I've closed myself from everyone because of my fear of being hurt. Life is much easier this way. My time here is short. Just waiting on my final paycheck to pay for my funeral. My life has been nothing short of a shit show lol. I used to wake up and think positive - then some shit would happen. Now I'm at a point where I don't even know who I am anymore. I have no purpose and no desire to continue this shit show. If anyone reads this, thanks.
I am older than most on the site (after reading numerous chats). I've no family and no one close to me. At one time I had friends (or so I thought), but they turned out to be users who didn't care at all. I'm an empath which is a huge part of my problem. I care too much for people who are in pain (whether physical or emotional). I've been duped by so many liars I could write a book. I'm now at a point in my life where I hate everything. I've closed myself from everyone because of my fear of being hurt. Life is much easier this way. My time here is short. Just waiting on my final paycheck to pay for my funeral. My life has been nothing short of a shit show lol. I used to wake up and think positive - then some shit would happen. Now I'm at a point where I don't even know who I am anymore. I have no purpose and no desire to continue this shit show. If anyone reads this, thanks.
