Venting "Noo dont kill yourself youll make me sad!!"

[futurebuscatcher]

This shit pisses me off so much. If anything me killing myself is for your sake too. You just don't realize it yet.

Like seriously my own mom knows I want to die and that I've been in a slump and at a point where I'm crying a lot in fucking private. Literally ended up crying on my own b day in front of everyone too. Literally even mentioned to my mover I wasn't supposed to be around this long. And what did I get "well I'm glad you made this far"

I try to talk to my friends about it and just get their own stories about feeling bad and ignoring my main point about me actually trying to attempt and it's not like they care in the first place given im constantly ignored.

It'd always boils down to "Oh ur family will be sad" or "I care about you." "What about your cats???" Clearly fucking not cause no one even bothers to understand or just ignores me.

I don't get why anyone thinks those stupid phrases work. If they really care then why don't they show it huh? Is that so selfish? Why do my own friends who 'care' disrespect me so much?

It's not even getting into how they want me to suffer for the rest of my life to spare their feelings. What a pathetic and miserable existence

I'm going to try to get another rope soon and work up the courage and the motivation to even get up.

I hate it here. I don't even know if I want to continue my suicide notes since it's so clear they don't care so why should I spare their feelings? Fuck this. Literally going to a therapy appointment soon and I know I'm not gonna care anyways. Just gonna be the 4th profession tro disregard me

What are some of the stupid ways people tried to yall up? Cause fucking hell it's so stupid.

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

Not defending them, and I agree with your point, but there are people in your life who do care about you to some extent but they aren't mental health professionals and probably struggle to express it. Also some people are busy and can't tend to you all the time, but if they could they probably would.

Just some things to consider.

 

[GoSan1]

This shit pisses me off so much. If anything me killing myself is for your sake too. You just don't realize it yet.

Like seriously my own mom knows I want to die and that I've been in a slump and at a point where I'm crying a lot in fucking private. Literally ended up crying on my own b day in front of everyone too. Literally even mentioned to my mover I wasn't supposed to be around this long. And what did I get "well I'm glad you made this far"

I try to talk to my friends about it and just get their own stories about feeling bad and ignoring my main point about me actually trying to attempt and it's not like they care in the first place given im constantly ignored.

It'd always boils down to "Oh ur family will be sad" or "I care about you." "What about your cats???" Clearly fucking not cause no one even bothers to understand or just ignores me.

I don't get why anyone thinks those stupid phrases work. If they really care then why don't they show it huh? Is that so selfish? Why do my own friends who 'care' disrespect me so much?

It's not even getting into how they want me to suffer for the rest of my life to spare their feelings. What a pathetic and miserable existence

I'm going to try to get another rope soon and work up the courage and the motivation to even get up.

I hate it here. I don't even know if I want to continue my suicide notes since it's so clear they don't care so why should I spare their feelings? Fuck this. Literally going to a therapy appointment soon and I know I'm not gonna care anyways. Just gonna be the 4th profession tro disregard me

What are some of the stupid ways people tried to yall up? Cause fucking hell it's so stupid.

My mom is like that too, but you see, for them you are their child, and a mother loves its child until the end. I hope that they do understand it when I do it too, and so can you. Sometimes you only see the better of things once they happen, this could be one of those cases. Either way, I get how you feel, I hate those words too.