Venting Not feeling too well

[izuka]

Recently i ask people to fake to be my ex friend cuz i miss her so much, some accept others dont, she became distant and cold and ended up blocking me, i think its bc i stalked her, or i was too annoying, or is bc of my appearance, im 5'4, recessed chin, large midface and bloated,

She was like that, she really liked tmnt,
rottmnt, play omori, zelda botw on
Nintendo switch, smash bros,
spider punk (hobbie), and micheal afton
from fnaf they were her favorite characters
and rottmnt characters
I gave her a cosplay of len
kagamine, she used to play mystic messenger,
colorful stage,
listened to vocaloid, my chemical
romance, 21st century pilots le
loved that last one
And she liked fnafhs,
cukikuin,shhe liked it a lot to
watch anime her favorite animes,, were
devilman crybaby, oshi no ko,
She also really liked
mbti personalities, and was very
otaku,

Im kinda feeling empty, i dont know what to do rn i am in medschool but i regret ruining my friendship with her, i was obsessive and pathetic, i js cant go on, i need help
My chin is like completely downgrowth right? Is like recessed asf, it makes my midface look so fucking large nd retarded plus my nose is too big, and my face its all bloated what the fuck do i have to do, i have tried everything i
1. Increase Potassium
Intake. (~4700mg/day)
2. Reduce Sodium Intake
(1500-2300mg/day)
3. Read Labels and micronutrients
i drink 4L of water, and do hiit cardio, on threadmill 15 inclination, like a Mountain type shit and 7,5 speed 30mins and rope jumping, fasting, if this isnt enough what is it? Why im still fat faced, no abs, and skinny fat.

And ik a solution
Might be getting
Mandibular Distraction + BSSO Advancement + Chin Implant
But im broke asf, idk what to do i dont even know what to do anymore i cant i js stare at the wall, i cant do anything its so miserable to be like this
I tried copying jawad methods, but my chin is fucking,,, makes me wanna fucking kill myself downward growth ik i should go to a orthodontist but how?? Im broken, and i cant get a job and study at the same time, for medschool, is js disappointing on top of thst i am 5'4 a fucking midget kTS OVER

 

[timf]

You might want to experiment with things outside of your comfort zone. For example, you might volunteer to read to the elderly. You might find that people will appreciate you regardless of how tall you are.

 

[Regen]

I'm sorry you're suffering. I was also extremely attached to my boyfriend and was distraught when he broke up in a way that I can hardly describe. I almost died from it.

I think the problem isn't your looks, otherwise she wouldn't have gotten together with you in the first place. Do you think your face is bloated because of a medical problem or is it just natural? People are so different, everyone has different visual tastes, there will definitely be people who like you the way you are. But you have less choice than if you look very good. But you're not looking for many, just the one.

But I understand you, being abandoned hurts like hell. I felt completely lost. Today sometimes I miss my boyfriend again, but it doesn't hurt this much. I think today I only miss the feeling of being loved and to love someone.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Almost ended my life because of no girlfriend, now recovered without getting any closer to a girlfriend. Daily meditation and helping others is the best way forward I know of. PM me if you want to talk about what you're going through or want to know more about how I recovered without getting a girlfriend.