Story Not me anymore

[Shewaitsforme]

Since being discharged from hospital ive been unable to leave my flat. Thought id be brave friday and head into town. It was awful, i couldnt cope. My phone rang and a girl id met online but not face to face said i sounded strange. She said i sounded really anxious and scared. It upset me i dont even sound like me anymore even to someone who ive never met.
Im ex army, employed by the ambulance servive i drive and treat patients (on long term sick now), worked as a bouncer so im not a shy, timid woman. Where has she gone? I cant even leave the house anymore. I just want to die

 

[dysfunctional]

I'm going through somethings similar as well. Not fun.

 

[Fucking loving it]

When I leave the same thing happens to me

 

[Schopenhauer]

Falling apart... that's how I was feeling this whole month. Progressively worse...

 

[TiredHorse]

Yes, that's me, too. Definitely part of why I want to ctb: the me I wanted to be --or as close as I ever got-- is gone, and I see no way to get him back. I'm slipping farther away every day, and I see no way to stop the slide. Better to ctb now, while I still can.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I'm not even a shadow of the person I was, I'm in pieces, so similar to you x