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quietwhisper

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Has anyone ever tried plant poisoning? Like Oleander plants? They have caused deaths before, accidental. I've never read of anyone intentionally ingesting the plant. It can cause cardiac arrest. I'm just curious. 🤷‍♂️
Why can't life be like the show Fallout, where you have more options and some easier options. Lol
 
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No, but it's possible to grow and ingest large quantities of toxic plants that pose risk of mortality. But, they look nicer than they taste.
 
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I bought some yellow ones, as apparently it's a popular way to CTB in tropical climates where it grows. I've read it can be pretty instant if you get the dosage right.

But alas, I got found out by the watchers and nearly involuntarily committed, it was taken away from me and flushed down the toilet.
 
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I know quite a bit about herbs. You're going to have a hard time ingesting enough toxic substances from any herbs without vomiting most of it up & you risk organ damage & further suffering. I would look elsewhere for a method that is much more reliable 🤗🌹💔
 
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outrider567

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They are pretty enough plants, white or pink--On a true crime website(since I've read 1000 books on it), we were talking about murder theoretically and how not to get caught, and I suggested to the forum that oleander would be an idea--A Medical Examiner answered me, and said, 'Yes, Oleander is something that we never test for in murder cases', so its certainly deadly
 
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I was just thinking about this, haha! :3

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L'absent

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Well… these methods have been used for centuries. Cardiac glycosides present in leaves inhibit the sodium-potassium ATPase pump, which regulates the balance of salts and water in cells. This leads to cardiac arrhythmias, slow heartbeat (bradycardia) and, in severe cases, cardiac arrest. 5-6 leaves might be enough, but that's subjective. The onset of symptoms occurs after many hours and is not pleasant. Then it depends on personal taste. Here are people who prefer SN to the immediate strike of a weapon. To me SN seems terrifying, others even consider it a peaceful method, others praise hanging. Everything is subjective!
 
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tbh2023

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Well… these methods have been used for centuries. Cardiac glycosides present in leaves inhibit the sodium-potassium ATPase pump, which regulates the balance of salts and water in cells. This leads to cardiac arrhythmias, slow heartbeat (bradycardia) and, in severe cases, cardiac arrest. 5-6 leaves might be enough, but that's subjective. The onset of symptoms occurs after many hours and is not pleasant. Then it depends on personal taste. Here are people who prefer SN to the immediate strike of a weapon. To me SN seems terrifying, others even consider it a peaceful method, others praise hanging. Everything is subjective!
I totally agree. That's why I'm throwing away my sn. Plus I've read so many failed cases either they fake stories for attention or real I just don't trust sn anymore. I thought about guns. In America we use guns they are easy and painless. The only reason stopping me from using a gun is my parents.
 
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Has anyone ever tried plant poisoning? Like Oleander plants? They have caused deaths before, accidental. I've never read of anyone intentionally ingesting the plant. It can cause cardiac arrest. I'm just curious. 🤷‍♂️
Why can't life be like the show Fallout, where you have more options and some easier options. Lol
My former friend who abused me friend took it and died from alcohol and hemlock, but she said oleander worked for her best and she needed a few more, so yes it works. I would try making a herbal tincture out of it with alcohol though :))
Well… these methods have been used for centuries. Cardiac glycosides present in leaves inhibit the sodium-potassium ATPase pump, which regulates the balance of salts and water in cells. This leads to cardiac arrhythmias, slow heartbeat (bradycardia) and, in severe cases, cardiac arrest. 5-6 leaves might be enough, but that's subjective. The onset of symptoms occurs after many hours and is not pleasant. Then it depends on personal taste. Here are people who prefer SN to the immediate strike of a weapon. To me SN seems terrifying, others even consider it a peaceful method, others praise hanging. Everything is subjective!
Exactly especially when you must read more into things and think about your condition and what works best for your overall health after you ctb
I totally agree. That's why I'm throwing away my sn. Plus I've read so many failed cases either they fake stories for attention or real I just don't trust sn anymore. I thought about guns. In America we use guns they are easy and painless. The only reason stopping me from using a gun is my parents.
Can you explain? Also, don't throw it out you need pure ones or need to read the label and manufacturing more, but it definitely does work. But also, guns are sadly too relatively hard as you even need to get a license for it too 😭
 
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My former friend who abused me friend took it and died from alcohol and hemlock, but she said oleander worked for her best and she needed a few more, so yes it works. I would try making a herbal tincture out of it with alcohol though :))

Exactly especially when you must read more into things and think about your condition and what works best for your overall health after you ctb

Can you explain? Also, don't throw it out you need pure ones or need to read the label and manufacturing more, but it definitely does work. But also, guns are sadly too relatively hard as you even need to get a license for it too 😭
Nothing to explain. This is my sn and I don't want to use it anymore. It's legit. Even if it works, I'm not interested in this method anymore. None should be out of breaths turning to black and blue for at least 30-60 minutes before they die. It's very painful. This is my opinion. I hope I didn't get anyone offended over here.
Having a license for a gun is not an issue for me but it will cause more trauma to my parents.
 
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Nothing to explain. This is my sn and I don't want to use it anymore. It's legit. Even if it works, I'm not interested in this method anymore. None should be out of breaths turning to black and blue for at least 30-60 minutes before they die. It's very painful. This is my opinion. I hope I didn't get anyone offended over here.
Having a license for a gun is not an issue for me but it will cause more trauma to my parents.

You are definitely right and I am glad you are choosing what's best for you!! Also, ask me about Oleander as I have personally tried it on my attempt when I took eyedrops and oleander seeds together. Made me so sick for 42 hours like my former friend said
 
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You are definitely right and I am glad you are choosing what's best for you!! Also, ask me about Oleander as I have personally tried it on my attempt when I took eyedrops and oleander seeds together. Made me so sick for 42 hours like my former friend said
Thank you so much! I don't know what to do. I don't want painful death either. The good methods are traumatizing for those who left behind. My parents are very nice people my suicide is going to hurt them. They are too old to understand depression. I did something unintentionally and hurt someone. I can't live with this guilt so I'm just lost. Hoping for natural death or accidental. I'm searching…
 
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Thank you so much! I don't know what to do. I don't want painful death either. The good methods are traumatizing for those who left behind. My parents are very nice people my suicide is going to hurt them. They are too old to understand depression. I did something unintentionally and hurt someone. I can't live with this guilt so I'm just lost. Hoping for natural death or accidental. I'm searching…
You are loving to care for those who wouldn't understand and I know for a fact that death is inevitable for most but it's equally the hardest for those who are loving and understanding. Those are very blessed yet cursed because they can never shelter our world we struggle with. I'd say do everything to protect them even if it will hurt you like lying to them about your painful thoughts and feelings. It's make you either resent them more or make you be hurt more. In the end, it's your own responsibility to make sure you don't hurt by becoming a former shel of your own. Also, I heard oleander won't be as painful as hemlock, but oleander isn't as bad either than hemlock. By that, it can rarely affect you, and it does put you to sleep and affect your system, and so does English yew, from what I remember my former friend telling me. But it's definitely Oleander yew she felt was making her bleed from the inside out and you don't notice it as much but it will hurt you. You'd need perhaps 6 packs of seeds depending on your body weight and size, I believe.
 
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I went ahead and ordered some seeds on Amazon.
 
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tbh2023

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You are loving to care for those who wouldn't understand and I know for a fact that death is inevitable for most but it's equally the hardest for those who are loving and understanding. Those are very blessed yet cursed because they can never shelter our world we struggle with. I'd say do everything to protect them even if it will hurt you like lying to them about your painful thoughts and feelings. It's make you either resent them more or make you be hurt more. In the end, it's your own responsibility to make sure you don't hurt by becoming a former shel of your own. Also, I heard oleander won't be as painful as hemlock, but oleander isn't as bad either than hemlock. By that, it can rarely affect you, and it does put you to sleep and affect your system, and so does English yew, from what I remember my former friend telling me. But it's definitely Oleander yew she felt was making her bleed from the inside out and you don't notice it as much but it will hurt you. You'd need perhaps 6 packs of seeds depending on your body weight and size, I believe.
Thank you again! You have so much knowledge. How do I buy hemlock?
I went ahead and ordered some seeds on Amazon.
So we plant the seeds or we eat the seeds? Lol 😂 sorry I'm so slow
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

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Thank you again! You have so much knowledge. How do I buy hemlock?

So we plant the seeds or we eat the seeds? Lol 😂 sorry I'm so slow
I wish I was knowledgeable. My childhood impacted so much of my life 🥹, but this is so sweet!! And you are welcome once more!

And yess!! There are many different sites. So first off, it depends on which country you live as it can be a factor of difficulty 🙃

Second, It doesn't matter, but seeds would take the most time, but they will equally be vital too, and I did it wrong by shallowing it but my former friend who died by train in October when I couldn't support her anymore because I was struggling with money and dealing with her abuse said to chew it down and let the shell be exposed so the insides gather you and she said she needed three more seeds and when she did that, she felt taking ricin seeds would be good too as she was sick for two days because of poison plants and didn't have the rest of what she needed to indulge in when she felt it would take about 6 more seeds for her to feel an affect. She was 5'8 btw and very skinny, while if I had done it right as I was financially supporting her fast plan with what I had, it would take that much too especially as I was much fatter and suffer from being overweight ((': but have great health issues to make sure I ctb this time 🥰
 
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I wish I was knowledgeable. My childhood impacted so much of my life 🥹, but this is so sweet!! And you are welcome once more!

And yess!! There are many different sites. So first off, it depends on which country you live as it can be a factor of difficulty 🙃

Second, It doesn't matter, but seeds would take the most time, but they will equally be vital too, and I did it wrong by shallowing it but my former friend who died by train in October when I couldn't support her anymore because I was struggling with money and dealing with her abuse said to chew it down and let the shell be exposed so the insides gather you and she said she needed three more seeds and when she did that, she felt taking ricin seeds would be good too as she was sick for two days because of poison plants and didn't have the rest of what she needed to indulge in when she felt it would take about 6 more seeds for her to feel an affect. She was 5'8 btw and very skinny, while if I had done it right as I was financially supporting her fast plan with what I had, it would take that much too especially as I was much fatter and suffer from being overweight ((': but have great health issues to make sure I ctb this time 🥰
Thank you for sharing! I heard about ricin in life time movies. I live in the US and I don't think it's hard to find anything… everything is available I just have to search for it.
 
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Thank you for sharing! I heard about ricin in life time movies. I live in the US and I don't think it's hard to find anything… everything is available I just have to search for it.
Ooooo!! Yep, both foxtail glove, deadly nightshade, oleander, ricin or caster bean seeds and English or Japanese yew were the most effective but we couldn't try foxtail glove long enough to try everything that could ctb us. Also, I know there are sites like amz and local flower nurseries that sell them online 😭😭, but they ship so long, but trust me the seeds of it matches the description online are worth looking into and you can even crush them up a little and drink with liquor, especially as that is how her friend died by hemlock alone on his first try 😶🙃, and I was 20 then and her abusive sister didn't want her having alcohol in the home despite it being her home…, so of course, we improvised and she said e and j yew were amazing, oleander, ricin, and felt between those and deadly nightshade, oleander and nightshade together made her stop breathing but she needed more and ricin was equally the same from the two and she felt the yews made her paralyzed and sleepy. :))
 
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Ooooo!! Yep, both foxtail glove, deadly nightshade, oleander, ricin or caster bean seeds and English or Japanese yew were the most effective but we couldn't try foxtail glove long enough to try everything that could ctb us. Also, I know there are sites like amz and local flower nurseries that sell them online 😭😭, but they ship so long, but trust me the seeds of it matches the description online are worth looking into and you can even crush them up a little and drink with liquor, especially as that is how her friend died by hemlock alone on his first try 😶🙃, and I was 20 then and her abusive sister didn't want her having alcohol in the home despite it being her home…, so of course, we improvised and she said e and j yew were amazing, oleander, ricin, and felt between those and deadly nightshade, oleander and nightshade together made her stop breathing but she needed more and ricin was equally the same from the two and she felt the eyes made her paralyzed and sleepy. :))
I know if ricin is taking with morphine it will be deadly with no trace. I'm have to look into this.. great sharing, thanks
 
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I know if ricin is taking with morphine it will be deadly with no trace. I'm have to look into this.. great sharing, thanks
All the best and hope ctb works well :D
 
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I believe you're making a terrible mistake with oleander. Its a hell of a painful & miserable way to go if it is kept in your stomach long enough.
I am absolutely pro choice. I just think it will cause you pain & possible disability. 🤗🌹💔
 
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Oleander is awful it tastes horrible, you'll throw up everything and will feel a big pressure on your chest but you probably won't die. I tried, it's just awful, I don't recommend
 
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Ooooo!! Yep, both foxtail glove, deadly nightshade, oleander, ricin or caster bean seeds and English or Japanese yew were the most effective but we couldn't try foxtail glove long enough to try everything that could ctb us. Also, I know there are sites like amz and local flower nurseries that sell them online 😭😭, but they ship so long, but trust me the seeds of it matches the description online are worth looking into and you can even crush them up a little and drink with liquor, especially as that is how her friend died by hemlock alone on his first try 😶🙃, and I was 20 then and her abusive sister didn't want her having alcohol in the home despite it being her home…, so of course, we improvised and she said e and j yew were amazing, oleander, ricin, and felt between those and deadly nightshade, oleander and nightshade together made her stop breathing but she needed more and ricin was equally the same from the two and she felt the eyes made her paralyzed and sleepy. :))
I think that the one herb you're talking about is Foxglove. It has a substance in it that slows & stabilizes the heart beat. The blood pressure drug propanolol (digoxin) was synthesized from foxglove.
Foxglove could be fatal except that the substance will be thrown up long before it could be effective.🤗🌹💔
 
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I did quite a bit of research on this at one point. I decided I liked the potency of the seeds and ordered some from a seller online. But have since stumbled upon a method that is more preferable for me. Still, it's nice to have the seeds as an alternative.
 
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I think that the one herb you're talking about is Foxglove. It has a substance in it that slows & stabilizes the heart beat. The blood pressure drug propanolol (digoxin) was synthesized from foxglove.
Foxglove could be fatal except that the substance will be thrown up long before it could be effective.🤗🌹💔
I never knew that amazing!!

Also, to combat that, you have to eat the day before and be dehydrated, as nothing will be able to be left in your system unless you eat small foods. I think there's research on it too., aside from safe foods that are manageable to the stomach lining you can control. I thankfully don't have this problem much I guess but that is something I would keep note of for anyone who do struggle with that. 🥹
 
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I know quite a bit about herbs. You're going to have a hard time ingesting enough toxic substances from any herbs without vomiting most of it up & you risk organ damage & further suffering. I would look elsewhere for a method that is much more reliable 🤗🌹💔
You always coming with the hard but true facts about unusual/unreliable methods 👍 snapping us back to reality.
 
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I went ahead and ordered some seeds on Amazon.
Thank you again! You have so much knowledge. How do I buy hemlock?

So we plant the seeds or we eat the seeds? Lol 😂 sorry I'm so slow

I ordered monkshood over the summer and it didn't work. Google says that two seeds (!) of the oleander is fatal. Wish me luck I need it.
 
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I went ahead and ordered some seeds on Amazon.


I ordered monkshood over the summer and it didn't work. Google says that two seeds (!) of the oleander is fatal. Wish me luck I need it.
Me and you both, my friend! I'm about to order from Amazon too
 
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You always coming with the hard but true facts about unusual/unreliable methods 👍 snapping us back to reality.
I just believe in harm reduction which is sort of ironic on a suicide oriented forum lol.
 
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https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1046/j.1365-3156.1999.00397.x This makes it sound hopeless, although two girls in HS kicked off the trend when they CTB. It looks like the scenario is spending six hours in a puddle of vomit and shit with chest pains and a full recovery. ChatGPT says a hundred seeds will do it for sure. Also case study https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10750315/ My seeds get here the 21st and I will eat all one hundred of them. I don't have anything else. Going to use Whole Foods ice cream to mask the bitterness.
 
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