past traumas affect me daily

[Imgonnadie]

Several past shitty experiences occupy my thoughts at all times. I distract as much as possible with video games, shitposting, and watching youtube and movies but whenever my mind is at rest those are the thoughts that natural occupy my brain space. I have no new positive experiences to overwrite them, just sitting my room and going to work. Doing things alone. When I recall these experiences they make me as sad and angry as when they first occurred. Life just feels like piling on top of shit on top of shit on top of shit and I'm forced to carry that ever increasing load.

 

[deadgirlahsatan]

I think a lot of people here can relate to that. I lot of horrible things happen and it's hard to handle. It seems to get worse instead of better .

 

[so tired or manic]

for me it got drastically worse for a while, but one day I noticed I hadn't thought about it in a bit. more days passed and there were less thoughts. of course there's flashbacks and I can't always predict what's going to cause them, but the aftereffects don't stick around as long. maybe it's the alcohol. maybe letting time pass was all I needed.

but then again it still affects everything I do, I just don't actively think about it in the same way.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Moving past trauma is hard. The fact that you are actually trying to move on at all and are giving life some effort is great. I don't think there is any magic advice that can make this situation easier, but I hope that by living and trying to build more happy experiences you can learn to cope with what's happened to you.

 

[XYZ]

That feeling of reliving a trauma to the point that you taste it, that's what almost broke me and took away my sanity. Did a ton of therapy just to barely function. Thx for sharing your story.

 

[Despairing]

That feeling of reliving a trauma to the point that you taste it, that's what almost broke me and took away my sanity. Did a ton of therapy just to barely function. Thx for sharing your story.

I have this now.