Felodese
Experienced
- Mar 31, 2024
- 278
I'm very ambivalent about recovery, but in the moments when I do lean towards trying to get better, I often try to find podcasts or youtube channels that might be helpful/relateable. It's not going very well though. Maybe I'm overly choosy...
Anyway, the problem is I have a very hard time finding anything where they're not:
I'm especially looking for something that adresses not wanting to get better/ambivalence, about recovery from long term/chronic depression, or what the recovery process actually feels like (like an honest one, with the good, bad and ugly)?
Anyway, the problem is I have a very hard time finding anything where they're not:
- selling something
- where short moments of symptom relief is called being cured
- where the advice is very vague
- that is only talking about recovery from a short depressive episode (I have chronic depression)
- Is triggerin in some way (all my triggers would make a really long list, sorry)
- calling being slightly less depressed - and desperately trying to stay that way, by using 20 different extremely time consuming techniques every day - complete recovery
I'm especially looking for something that adresses not wanting to get better/ambivalence, about recovery from long term/chronic depression, or what the recovery process actually feels like (like an honest one, with the good, bad and ugly)?