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I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?
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Thinking about it, more crys for help if I'm honest. A sad attempt at a wrist slit, couple of overdoses... just couldn't swallow the pills at the time. All a long time ago now.
I have no attempts. This is because I don't want to fail and if I am to attempt, it won't be a cry for help, but an genuine action towards the ultimate result, death. I have done extensive research and careful planning for my method so I am just waiting for the right circumstances before I go through with it.
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I failed because I didn't enter sites with information like this one.
I can't remember how many times I tried. It's been about 10 years since the last time.
I've been also two days or so sleeping having 150mg of diazepam (almost nothing)
I was naive to try with diazepam 500mg and a lot of antidepressives.
Also I tried with CO2 but I didn't know there was a safety detector of CO2 in the heater. I tried to find a way to disable it. Now I know I can use charcoal, it seems.
I tried to be fat (a way that it wouldn't notice others) but at last the medics convinced me. It's the only way my family wouldn't be ashamed of me. a 'natural' problem.
Now I have the amytriptiline cocktail in front of me in my table. Waiting for the right moment.
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I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?
I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?
It's not easy to end your life, especially if you're not educated on how to properly do it. Even on this site, there's failed attempts. Personally, I have failed because of that and being scared of the pain, so I didn't choose something like hanging. If it were as easy as pushing a button, many more of us would be gone.
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I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?
For me, i was to young to know how to do it. I tried and almost made it when i was 5 yo, sucked on a flat and round decoration and it got stuck in my throat as planned, but unfortunatly i coughed it up after a minute.
Another time i swallowed hair because i'd heard you would die then.
Also tried to suffocate under a duvet and several times i jumped out into traffic, but discovered that cars can stop on a dime.:(
When i was 10 yo i jumped in a 4 meter deep pool because i couldnt swim then and thought i would drown, but no, i float like a fucking cork!
I've tried 3x. Each time I learn from my mistakes. I am hopeful I have perfected my method, now know exactly what to expect, and will die on my next attempt.
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I have tried partial many times, most days for over a month. As I started to get close to blacking out, I would wuss out. This is the reason I changed my method of choice to one that is harder to chicken out. I haven't been in such a bad headspace as I was for that month, but if I am, I am fairly certain my new method will work.
I did two serious attempts, and many half-assed ones because I'm too scared to die.
I don't understand it! If I hate feeling this way 24/7, it should be easy to go through with it! I hate the survival instinct. Feel so strange when its kicked, as if I'm not really there, my body is undoing that knot ir whatever.
I did two serious attempts, and many half-assed ones because I'm too scared to die.
I don't understand it! If I hate feeling this way 24/7, it should be easy to go through with it! I hate the survival instinct. Feel so strange when its kicked, as if I'm not really there, my body is undoing that knot ir whatever.
The weird part is i keep telling myself people die all the time... in pain all the time... unable to do a damn thing about it. Like bleeding out in a car crash, or getting crushed by heavy machinery, or slipping and falling from a great height, etc. If i slipped and fell on accident vs jumping on purpose, id feel the same pain and experience the same death. So why is it so hard to make myself jump? If i had slipped, like many people before me have done, i would be stuck experiencing all the pains of a falling death without choice anyway. If a 15 year old kid can accidentally fall off a parking structure and die, whos to say that pain and death he experienced isnt good enough for me? I deserve better somehow? A more painless death? He had to experience everything all of a sudden out of nowhere. I get to experience the same sensations after mentally bracing myself. If he can go through the dying process, so should i be able to.
I mean what if thats how im destined to die anyway? Slip and fall from a great height when im in my 40s? And i put off my death of jumping for 20 years only to die that way anyway in the end??
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The weird part is i keep telling myself people die all the time... in pain all the time... unable to do a damn thing about it. Like bleeding out in a car crash, or getting crushed by heavy machinery, or slipping and falling from a great height, etc. If i slipped and fell on accident vs jumping on purpose, id feel the same pain and experience the same death. So why is it so hard to make myself jump? If i had slipped, like many people before me have done, i would be stuck experiencing all the pains of a falling death without choice anyway. If a 15 year old kid can accidentally fall off a parking structure and die, whos to say that pain and death he experienced isnt good enough for me? I deserve better somehow? A more painless death? He had to experience everything all of a sudden out of nowhere. I get to experience the same sensations after mentally bracing myself. If he can go through the dying process, so should i be able to.
I mean what if thats how im destined to die anyway? Slip and fall from a great height when im in my 40s? And i put off my death of jumping for 20 years only to die that way anyway in the end??
I did many suicide attempts, but most attempts were tests only (usually by partial hanging). Only if some attempt was painless and hopeful, i wanted continue. Honestly, only two attempts were really real, but i failed too.
I personally did never do an attempt to suicide, but i read allot story's of people that did do allot attempts, it makes me really curious and how is it possible to fail like 10 times, is it a form of attention so u dont wanna die? or is it really hard to kill your self without good preperation?
It's not easy to end your life, especially if you're not educated on how to properly do it. Even on this site, there's failed attempts. Personally, I have failed because of that and being scared of the pain, so I didn't choose something like hanging. If it were as easy as pushing a button, many more of us would be gone.
Hanging isn't painful as long as you use padding. And even those that have attempted full suspension here say that they didn't feel anything whilst they were out.
For me, i was to young to know how to do it. I tried and almost made it when i was 5 yo, sucked on a flat and round decoration and it got stuck in my throat as planned, but unfortunatly i coughed it up after a minute.
Another time i swallowed hair because i'd heard you would die then.
Also tried to suffocate under a duvet and several times i jumped out into traffic, but discovered that cars can stop on a dime.:(
When i was 10 yo i jumped in a 4 meter deep pool because i couldnt swim then and thought i would drown, but no, i float like a fucking cork!
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