Discussion [POLL] What's your life battery at?

[_Gollum_]

If we think of our ability to bear the burden of life--and this includes everything on the hierarchy of needs, from basic bodily maintenance to self-actualization--in terms of battery power, where would you say you're at on most days?

I think the reason I "feel old" is because I'm usually around 5-15%, similar to how an 80-year-old on their death bed would ostensibly feel. This is probably what makes my suicidal ideation active, not passive; I simply don't have the battery power to even try to recharge, nevermind continue on for another few years. Hell, activities that are supposed to recharge you (like socializing, travelling, etc.) deplete me even more! I'm done. Curious to see where you guys are at.

 

[Mebius]

5% but it doesnt deplete further

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I had the means to live my life I'd be at 100%. I'm in my 40s ... I just can't do a lot, (physical) life battery is full. Mental batteries have given up.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I love this idea. I'd say 20-39% for me. I'm basically a recluse now. So much about having to face life again terrifies me. But for now, I'm supporting myself, working from home. I guess that's something. I'm forcing myself to exercise each day. I'm trying to keep on top of my workload. But, I'm exhausted in all areas- physically, mentally, emotionally.

 

[NumbItAll]

Usually between 5-15%. I'm not capable of doing much. I'm effectively disabled by depression, and there's no help available. Psychiatry made things catastrophically worse (probably was like 25-30% before being poisoned).

 

[rozeske]

I gave it all I've got. I am tired and my low battery is blinking but proud of myself. I'm not on 0 but don't have much left in me either. Let's say I'm on very low battery, just enough to push me through this last moments.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I'd say it's at around 50%. Occasionally I can get a few extra watts of charge from certain franchises that excite me but overall my energy levels stay somewhere in the middle then deplete when I have to do anything too stressful like getting out of bed.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I think I have 6% of life battery. Hopefully I can kill myself so that it can be at 0% life battery

 

[sserafim]

1-19%

 

[anopenwound]

5%

 

[Steff1337]

5%

Same.

 

[Username1359751]

If I had the means to live my life I'd be at 100%. I'm in my 40s ... I just can't do a lot, (physical) life battery is full. Mental batteries have given up.

Okay that explains it. This constant intracranial pressure doesn't allow me to allow for full capacity of thought, so I was wondering who the hell voted at "100%."

 

[_Gollum_]

Bump. I managed to "recharge" to maybe 35% and now I'm going back down again and I feel it in my bones.

 

[Namelesa]

Like 10% currently. I don't feel like doing anything. Everything feels such a bother and not worth the effort now.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I thought it was talking about my phone battery and I put 100%

 

[Pluto]

 

[Scythe]

5% more or less, but I'm calculating it based on how much time I have left from my planned date.

If you're asking how much more bullshit I can mentally withstand, well, quite a bit more, maybe 50%, but I'm not putting myself through that. I'm sick and tired of life bullshit.

 

[abysss.s]

most days 5-10%. i feel like a get a quick 5-30 minutes at 80% charge every couple days, but after that i drop down bc i dont have the strength to keep myself up there

tis rubberbanding just exhuasts me more tho, with every energy spark i let pass by im increasingly more dissapointed in myself

 

[FoxSauce]

20 ish % still freinds make it worth while.

Life has a lot of crap to deal with as for family and the anxiety makes all the eay to 5.

I have no idea how am still on. Ig im like 1% that can stay on for a while when in that state.

 

[Dark Moon]

About 1-19% I just don't care about anything right now and ctb is still on my mind.

 

[darksouls]

1-19%