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miseryh8scompany

miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
3 years of hell so far after taking a pharma drug. Anyone else?
 
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Eusoul

Member
May 13, 2020
19
Risperidone . Destroyed my psychosis, but also destroyed my drive to live and to do anything. Even after it was tampered off. :(
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Adderall mostly. I came off everything else with no problems. The stimulant meds really fucked me up though. There's a long withdrawal syndrome if u have been on stimulant meds or drugs for many years.
 
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miseryh8scompany

miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
Mine wasn't a psych drug, it was azelaic acid skin cream. Used it for a week, been living in hell for 3 years now. Disabled, want to die
 
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JustLosingMyself

Mage
Sep 4, 2018
544
Paroxetine. That stuff is the devil's excrement.
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
592
Adderall mostly. I came off everything else with no problems. The stimulant meds really fucked me up though. There's a long withdrawal syndrome if u have been on stimulant meds or drugs for many years.

I spoke with someone who had a really tough withdrawal with adderall and it messed with him until he started microdosing on psilocybin mushrooms. I'm trying that starting next week, so far I've heard rave reviews about it.
 
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mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
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I got very paranoid after smoking heaps of crystal meth and have had bouts of paranoia ever since. I don't know if it's because of the past drug use or due to a mental illness. I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective and BPD.
 
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Dreamless Sleep

The eternal night before chaos...
Feb 1, 2020
190
I got very paranoid after smoking heaps of crystal meth and have had bouts of paranoia ever since. I don't know if it's because of the past drug use or due to a mental illness. I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective and BPD.

I've not done it personally, but have several family members who do. One has the same MH diagnoses as you and has extreme paranoia when she is on it... like, batshit crazy stuff that makes me not allow her in the house. And now seems to have it to some extent even when she's come down. I think it's affecting her brain/enhancing her MH issues. The other 2 with no MH problems don't seem to have any paranoia with meth use that I've observed.
 
Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
YES, an antidepressant called Marplan. I can't talk about it here it's so bad. I can't even stand to think about it. It's one of my sources of PTSD for me.
it was azelaic acid skin cream.
I tried that one time and it tore up my skin bad so I stopped immediately. My skin went crazy.
 
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Worthless_nobody

Enlightened
Feb 14, 2019
1,384
Yes the antidepressant Zoloft gave me permanent anhedonia. It's been at least 5 years since I quit it but I still can't feel like myself again. Also benzos...I wish I was never prescribed those because getting off is so hard with withdrawal and rebound depression and anxiety.

Mine wasn't a psych drug, it was azelaic acid skin cream. Used it for a week, been living in hell for 3 years now. Disabled, want to die
If you don't mind me asking what did it do to you? A dermatologist wanted me to use this but now I'm scared of it. I heard bad stories about these things.
 
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somniummalum

Student
Jul 3, 2020
119
Deciding to do drugs when I was 17 was definetly one of the worst decisions of my life.
 
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miseryh8scompany

Student
Dec 20, 2019
120
Yes the antidepressant Zoloft gave me permanent anhedonia. It's been at least 5 years since I quit it but I still can't feel like myself again. Also benzos...I wish I was never prescribed those because getting off is so hard with withdrawal and rebound depression and anxiety.


If you don't mind me asking what did it do to you? A dermatologist wanted me to use this but now I'm scared of it. I heard bad stories about these things.

It's a 5ar inhibitor which messes with some very important steroids in the body. Most doctors don't even know this. Stay far away....
It's a 5ar inhibitor which messes with some very important steroids in the body. Most doctors don't even know this. Stay far away....

Funny that you mention ssri's and benzos. I use both now to deal with the damage that this shit did to my brain
 

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