Story Potentially Being Abandoned by Longtime Friends

[Ethernatuskoi]

A few months ago I realized that I'm distancing myself from my long-time online friends. We've known each other for at least 5-6 years, we used to play RPGs together, create characters and countless stories, we had the same dream of trying to turn our stories into an animated series, but as they got busy with their responsibilities they became more distant, but that's not the problem here. The problem is that when I send them messages, they don't even bother to respond even when they're online, but when they talk to each other, the response time is fast and almost instantaneous. It might just be my paranoia, but I don't think that's the case. They ignore my messages and practically everything I do. One of them even asked me to draw a character and he would pay in exchange, I accepted, I spent hours drawing the drawing and when I sent a message saying it was ready, he simply ignored me, even though I see him online and send messages in the group quite often. I didn't hand in the drawing, but I also didn't get paid, but either way, I drew it for nothing and just wasted my time. It's really frustrating when the people you care about the most suddenly distance themselves from you and ignore you as if you practically didn't exist, especially after everything we've done and shared together. They didn't even care when I mentioned my ctb attempt, and it's not like they didn't know what to say, I expected at least an "I'm sorry" or "are you okay ?", but instead, I didn't get any messages of that kind and some time later, they were talking to each other about random things and fuck the fact that I tried to commit suicide lol

But I realized one thing, even though this situation is a little frustrating, my life without them hasn't changed at all. I think that in the end, I shouldn't suffer for them or for this kind of thing. The best thing to do is to accept it and move on. When I go to ctb, I won't bother leaving any goodbye messages because I know they'll probably ignore it anyway, I mean, if they ignored the fact that I tried, they'll ignore the fact that I did it too and they won't even read the letter, or they'll only read it partially. I'm going to delete our groups very soon and that's it.

 

[blackbeauty]

I'm going through that now, it's really tough to see long time friends go to strangers when nothing wrong has actually happened and it can be frustrating when you are the one putting so much effort in to keep the friendship alive. Same as you, I don't send messages to friends that don't put any effort anymore, it's just one way of trying to protect my energy.

 

[CTB Dream]

Ya me know human scum speces me say injury damage all frnd lev, this human all nonsns

 

[Ethernatuskoi]

I'm going through that now, it's really tough to see long time friends go to strangers when nothing wrong has actually happened and it can be frustrating when you are the one putting so much effort in to keep the friendship alive. Same as you, I don't send messages to friends that don't put any effort anymore, it's just one way of trying to protect my energy.

This situation honestly sucks. Last month I spent days writing chapters for an RPG story we created together, but in the end, none of them were even interested in reading it. But when one of them wrote a single chapter for another story, everyone in the group read it and even gave positive feedback, including me. In other words, the issue here is that I'm the only one being ignored for some reason and no one cares about anything I do, which is strange to say the least since I've never done anything bad to them, we've never even fought or argued, we've always resolved everything through conversation. The stories we created together mean something to me, since I dedicated a lot of my time developing them, but I can no longer dedicate my time and energy to something that everyone will completely ignore I hope you can completely detach yourself from these people. It's not worth it.

Ya me know human scum speces me say injury damage all frnd lev, this human all nonsns

People stay with others out of pure convenience. If you are doing well, they want you by their side, but when you are feeling down for some reason, no one wants to be around you and they see you as just a burden, and then they quickly forget about you. Only true friends stay by your side, no matter the situation.

 

[RoadToGehenna]

A few months ago I realized that I'm distancing myself from my long-time online friends. We've known each other for at least 5-6 years, we used to play RPGs together, create characters and countless stories, we had the same dream of trying to turn our stories into an animated series, but as they got busy with their responsibilities they became more distant, but that's not the problem here. The problem is that when I send them messages, they don't even bother to respond even when they're online, but when they talk to each other, the response time is fast and almost instantaneous. It might just be my paranoia, but I don't think that's the case. They ignore my messages and practically everything I do. One of them even asked me to draw a character and he would pay in exchange, I accepted, I spent hours drawing the drawing and when I sent a message saying it was ready, he simply ignored me, even though I see him online and send messages in the group quite often. I didn't hand in the drawing, but I also didn't get paid, but either way, I drew it for nothing and just wasted my time. It's really frustrating when the people you care about the most suddenly distance themselves from you and ignore you as if you practically didn't exist, especially after everything we've done and shared together. They didn't even care when I mentioned my ctb attempt, and it's not like they didn't know what to say, I expected at least an "I'm sorry" or "are you okay ?", but instead, I didn't get any messages of that kind and some time later, they were talking to each other about random things and fuck the fact that I tried to commit suicide lol

But I realized one thing, even though this situation is a little frustrating, my life without them hasn't changed at all. I think that in the end, I shouldn't suffer for them or for this kind of thing. The best thing to do is to accept it and move on. When I go to ctb, I won't bother leaving any goodbye messages because I know they'll probably ignore it anyway, I mean, if they ignored the fact that I tried, they'll ignore the fact that I did it too and they won't even read the letter, or they'll only read it partially. I'm going to delete our groups very soon and that's it.

I also feel like I'm not reciprocated in most friendships. Always giving more than I'm given. Nevermind about friend groups. I'd love to read your storied. Never ventured into this kind of RPG stuff but it seems fun and kind of my thing :D