Story Pouring out the soul

[divorceddepression]

2006-2019 I was with my ex. Daughter born 2007, Son 2016.
Ex betrayals without remorse Dec 2018.
The ex has spent the last 2 years doing her best to prove she made the right choice with the divorce. I have been utterly destroyed by her actions. She has sent lawyers and Children's Aid Society after me with lies about sexual assault and stories of abuse.

I've spent 3 months in a mental ward due to depression(multiple suicide attempts), 3 months in a day program, and many hours with therapists.


I spend my days locked in "my" bedroom at my parents trying to deprive myself of everything.
I cant figure out how to restart life; how to live life with kids who have been turned against me.

I've tried ending my life a few times in the past week by partial suspension hanging. I chicken out and wish I would just do it.

I wish every night that tonight will be the night I check out.

Greetings from Toronto, Canada

 

[Bullit]

What a filthy,dirty,rotten bitch your wife is. A worthless abusive,cruel slut. Wow that bitch fucked up your life. I hope you can find a way to come back.

 

[divorceddepression]

What a filthy,dirty,rotten bitch your wife is. A worthless abusive,cruel slut. Wow that bitch fucked up your life. I hope you can find a way to come back.

I agree; but I still desire a future where we would somehow get back together.

I've had bouts where I came out of my depression and found joy. In those high states I would dream of a future where my family was repaired, made whole again. Those thoughts make me feel like an idiot; I can't believe I want to be with her again. It makes no sense but I cant seem to turn my brain away from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

People can be so cruel and are capable of causing us so much pain. I'm sorry you have had to go through all of that. I wish you the best.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm so sorry to hear of your suffering. What a traumatic experience, this sounds incredibly painful to have to live with. I'm sorry about your relationship with your children. Life is so cruel because of the actions of others that affect your circumstances. I wish you peace no matter your decision