Story Preparing to depart

[d3ad]

My SN is arriving this week. I have already made peace with the idea of being gone. I processed my emotions and asked myself if this is what I really want, and I am sure that it is. I felt excited initially, then sad and now idk what I'm feeling. I'm just happy that my pain will end and I won't have to suffer anymore. Right now I am in excruciating emotional pain. Few days from now, all of this will be gone. I am experiencing a hard time imagining eternal oblivion, but it doesn't matter. I won't be experiencing or feeling anything. I feel horrible for the people who love me who will be deeply hurt by my decision, but my pain is worse. I deserve better, I deserve peace. I have lived my entire short life in pain, I deserve to rest. I was wondering whether I should leave a note behind, but my pain is too complex to just reduce it to words. They will understand - someone has to have been in a lot of pain for them to consider ctb as their best option.

 

[catfriend]

godspeed! i hope you find peace. you deserve it. we all do. :)

 

[d3ad]

godspeed! i hope you find peace. you deserve it. we all do. :)

Thank you so much!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace! Good luck!

 

[SVEN]

Every good wish.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom from the pain and suffering you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[hoshi_starrz]

I hope you find peace and your journey is painless. I'll see you among the constellations <3

 

[d3ad]

Thank you so much, friends. I appreciate all of you.

 

[belowaveragefish]

My SN is arriving this week. I have already made peace with the idea of being gone. I processed my emotions and asked myself if this is what I really want, and I am sure that it is. I felt excited initially, then sad and now idk what I'm feeling. I'm just happy that my pain will end and I won't have to suffer anymore. Right now I am in excruciating emotional pain. Few days from now, all of this will be gone. I am experiencing a hard time imagining eternal oblivion, but it doesn't matter. I won't be experiencing or feeling anything. I feel horrible for the people who love me who will be deeply hurt by my decision, but my pain is worse. I deserve better, I deserve peace. I have lived my entire short life in pain, I deserve to rest. I was wondering whether I should leave a note behind, but my pain is too complex to just reduce it to words. They will understand - someone has to have been in a lot of pain for them to consider ctb as their best option.

Yet another brave soul striking a blow for freedom. Safe travels, friend.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

we're with you you absolutely deserve peace and rest.

 

[d3ad]

I swear I am not crying. You guys are so kind. I am so grateful for all these sweet and positive comments.

 

[liza]

I will remember you for sure you will have a place in my heart. Good luck. Also I would just like to say if you think about the day you do it maybe stay for one more day because what if you feel better the next day its worth discovering.

 

[d3ad]

I will remember you for sure you will have a place in my heart. Good luck. Also I would just like to say if you think about the day you do it maybe stay for one more day because what if you feel better the next day its worth discovering.

Thank you so much, friend.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

you're in my thoughts unmet friend.

 

[Linda]

I hope all goes well for you. (And I always really liked your pfp.)