Help Preventing grief

[EternalAgony]

Hi, I am planning to use the SN method soon, I will tell my parents that I'll be staying at a friend, then I'll go to a hotel and take it there, and I'll make sure nobody checks in until my parents call the police and say that I'm missing.

The problem is that, I want to make sure that my parents suffer as little as possible from my death, because they love me too much and this will devastate them, but I really need to hear some ideas about how to reduce this to a minimum.

I guess that the only way is a suicide note, what I want to know is what I should write. Maybe some people can also suggest to do certain things before catching the bus.

Please respond, I really need ideas. Thank you

:)

 

[hamudhhb]

i have the same problem, my mom and siblings love me way too much.
you dont have to do it but i will leave no note, i wouldnt want them to cry every time they see it.

 

[EternalAgony]

i have the same problem, my mom and siblings love me way too much.
you dont have to do it but i will leave no note, i wouldnt want them to cry every time they see it.

I believe that they deserve an explanation
For why I choose death, and about how they are NOT guilty

 

[Freebandzgang]

If your parents love you then there is no way to completely prevent grief, there are only ways slightly reduce it (still wont help much). My advice would be to explain in detail why you did it, your whole thought process behind it all and what their role in it was (if they made you more or less inclined to ctb) This will help them understand why. You can also add personal touches like memories that you enjoyed with them or something similar.

 

[saturn1402]

Sorry but no. If they really care about you, there's nothing you can say to change the above.
Look - every time somebody dies, in general, those close to them suffer. One way or another. Even if it was because of the age and death was peaceful, ie. in the sleep.
If it was accident - there will be additional factor "oh, their life was cut short, they could enjoy it a bit longer"
If it was disease - "wish we could do sth to lessen the suffering and to extend their happy life"
But, if it's a suicide, that's whole lot different can of worms. No matter what you say, those close to you WILL blame themselves that they couldn't ease your pain, make you see the world in brighter light, encourage you to stay longer etc. They might agree and understand your reasons but deep inside they will blame themselves till the end of their lives. And i'm not saying this to guilt trip you. I'm just describing general reaction people tend have when faced with death in general and suicide in particular.

I had a very similar question a few weeks ago. And this answer was very helpful…

Unfortunately not much you can do. All you can do is just writing that you love them and that it wasn't their fault

 

[gothbird]

Thank you for being honest about where you're at, and for even thinking about this part. A lot of people don't. The fact that you care how your parents will handle your absence says more about you than any note ever could.

Here are some things I have considered for my exit this year that may help you.

1. The Note

Yes, a note helps. It won't "fix" anything. It won't erase their pain. But it gives them something to understand, and understanding reduces chaos.

Here is a helpful guide on writing a good note!

A good note does three things:

A. Clarifies Intent
You want them to know this was not impulsive. That you weren't angry at them. That you weren't looking for attention or trying to punish anyone. Say it clearly.

Examples:
• "I've been carrying this decision for a long time. It wasn't sudden."
• "This wasn't anyone's fault—not yours, not mine. Just pain I couldn't carry any longer."
• "This was thought through. I know what I'm doing, and I've made peace with it."

B. Releases Them From Blame
This is the most important part. People—especially parents—will blame themselves. You need to remove that weight from their hands if you can.

Examples:
• "Please don't wonder what you missed. You didn't miss anything."
• "I love you. That's never been the problem."
• "You were good to me. This isn't about you failing—it's about me needing peace."

C. Acknowledges Their Love and Grief
If your parents cared for you, they'll want to know you knew that.

Examples:
• "I know how much you love me. That's why this hurts, and I'm sorry."
• "I hope you remember the good parts of me, not just this."
• "I wish I could've carried that love with me longer. I just ran out of strength."

2. Practical Steps to Reduce Trauma

Beyond the note, you can reduce distress through preparation. This isn't about creating a "perfect" exit. It's about reducing shock, confusion, and guilt.

A. Timing the Discovery

You already have a plan to delay discovery until you're officially reported missing. That's good. If you're using a hotel:

• Place a printed note or visible message near the door:
"Please do not enter. Contact emergency services."
• Tape it at eye level so cleaning staff see it first.
• Mention in your note to your parents that you took steps to ensure they would not be the ones to find you directly.

B. Leave a Trail, But Keep It Calm

Send a short message like:
"Staying at [friend's name] until Monday—just need space. Love you."
Don't disappear completely without a hint. That just raises panic and accelerates discovery.

C. Prepare a Clean, Clear Space

• Place ID and note somewhere visible.
• Choose clean clothes. Lay flat if possible. Avoid disarray.
• If using SN, place the container visibly or label it to avoid confusion.
• Open windows slightly (if possible) to reduce odour—this is for whoever finds you.

These things aren't for you. They're for whoever has to walk into the room after. It's a quiet mercy.

3. Objects and Memory Anchors

Some people find comfort in physical reminders. Others don't. If you think it'll help, consider:

A. Leaving an Object With Meaning

Examples:
• A photo of the two of you, with something written on the back: "This is how I want you to remember me."
• A childhood item they gave you.
• A book, marked at a favourite passage.
• Something they'll recognise as yours.

This gives them something to hold—something to feel close to.

B. Digital Farewell
Some leave scheduled emails or messages through services like FutureMe or Gmail scheduling.
Keep them short. Reassuring. You don't need to explain the act—just offer comfort.

Example:
"If this reaches you, I'm sorry. I hope the days ahead feel a little less heavy than they do now. You were a light to me, even if I couldn't hold onto it."

4. If You Have Pets

Please do not leave them behind with no plan. Even a note saying "Please take care of my cat. Her name is Nori. She's shy but sweet. She loves salmon treats." can make all the difference.
Rehome them beforehand if you can. Use Reddit, friends, family, or animal welfare organisations. They deserve gentleness, too.

5. Other things

Here are some small things people have done to reduce distress for others:
• Pre-pay the hotel so no one feels responsible for logistics.
• Leave a small envelope of money for basic funeral costs or travel expenses.
• Label everything: your phone, your ID, the note. It keeps people from rummaging through personal things.
• Write a separate note just for a parent or sibling, if you're able. Let them know what they meant to you. That love does not vanish just because you're gone.

---

You cannot stop them from grieving.
You can't make this painless.
But you can reduce the trauma. You can offer a thread of understanding they can hold onto, instead of being left in confusion or horror.
Your love for them is clear. That doesn't mean you have to stay.
But if you go—you can go gently.

Hope this helps.

 

[EternalAgony]

Thanks to all who responded... How can I write a suicide note that will only be discovered after my death?

Thank you for being honest about where you're at, and for even thinking about this part. A lot of people don't. The fact that you care how your parents will handle your absence says more about you than any note ever could.

Here are some things I have considered for my exit this year that may help you.

1. The Note

Yes, a note helps. It won't "fix" anything. It won't erase their pain. But it gives them something to understand, and understanding reduces chaos.

Here is a helpful guide on writing a good note!

A good note does three things:

A. Clarifies Intent
You want them to know this was not impulsive. That you weren't angry at them. That you weren't looking for attention or trying to punish anyone. Say it clearly.

Examples:
• "I've been carrying this decision for a long time. It wasn't sudden."
• "This wasn't anyone's fault—not yours, not mine. Just pain I couldn't carry any longer."
• "This was thought through. I know what I'm doing, and I've made peace with it."

B. Releases Them From Blame
This is the most important part. People—especially parents—will blame themselves. You need to remove that weight from their hands if you can.

Examples:
• "Please don't wonder what you missed. You didn't miss anything."
• "I love you. That's never been the problem."
• "You were good to me. This isn't about you failing—it's about me needing peace."

C. Acknowledges Their Love and Grief
If your parents cared for you, they'll want to know you knew that.

Examples:
• "I know how much you love me. That's why this hurts, and I'm sorry."
• "I hope you remember the good parts of me, not just this."
• "I wish I could've carried that love with me longer. I just ran out of strength."

2. Practical Steps to Reduce Trauma

Beyond the note, you can reduce distress through preparation. This isn't about creating a "perfect" exit. It's about reducing shock, confusion, and guilt.

A. Timing the Discovery

You already have a plan to delay discovery until you're officially reported missing. That's good. If you're using a hotel:

• Place a printed note or visible message near the door:
"Please do not enter. Contact emergency services."
• Tape it at eye level so cleaning staff see it first.
• Mention in your note to your parents that you took steps to ensure they would not be the ones to find you directly.

B. Leave a Trail, But Keep It Calm

Send a short message like:
"Staying at [friend's name] until Monday—just need space. Love you."
Don't disappear completely without a hint. That just raises panic and accelerates discovery.

C. Prepare a Clean, Clear Space

• Place ID and note somewhere visible.
• Choose clean clothes. Lay flat if possible. Avoid disarray.
• If using SN, place the container visibly or label it to avoid confusion.
• Open windows slightly (if possible) to reduce odour—this is for whoever finds you.

These things aren't for you. They're for whoever has to walk into the room after. It's a quiet mercy.

3. Objects and Memory Anchors

Some people find comfort in physical reminders. Others don't. If you think it'll help, consider:

A. Leaving an Object With Meaning

Examples:
• A photo of the two of you, with something written on the back: "This is how I want you to remember me."
• A childhood item they gave you.
• A book, marked at a favourite passage.
• Something they'll recognise as yours.

This gives them something to hold—something to feel close to.

B. Digital Farewell
Some leave scheduled emails or messages through services like FutureMe or Gmail scheduling.
Keep them short. Reassuring. You don't need to explain the act—just offer comfort.

Example:
"If this reaches you, I'm sorry. I hope the days ahead feel a little less heavy than they do now. You were a light to me, even if I couldn't hold onto it."

4. If You Have Pets

Please do not leave them behind with no plan. Even a note saying "Please take care of my cat. Her name is Nori. She's shy but sweet. She loves salmon treats." can make all the difference.
Rehome them beforehand if you can. Use Reddit, friends, family, or animal welfare organisations. They deserve gentleness, too.

5. Other things

Here are some small things people have done to reduce distress for others:
• Pre-pay the hotel so no one feels responsible for logistics.
• Leave a small envelope of money for basic funeral costs or travel expenses.
• Label everything: your phone, your ID, the note. It keeps people from rummaging through personal things.
• Write a separate note just for a parent or sibling, if you're able. Let them know what they meant to you. That love does not vanish just because you're gone.

---

You cannot stop them from grieving.
You can't make this painless.
But you can reduce the trauma. You can offer a thread of understanding they can hold onto, instead of being left in confusion or horror.
Your love for them is clear. That doesn't mean you have to stay.
But if you go—you can go gently.

Hope this helps.

This is such a comprehensive answer... Thank you a lot

 

[gothbird]

Thanks to all who responded... How can I write a suicide note that will only be discovered after my death?

This is such a comprehensive answer... Thank you a lot

No worries at all. I love to dissect all of the complex emotions around the end. Be well.