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przeciwwymiotne

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Jun 27, 2022
360
Every second I try to convince myself that it's worth to keep pushing keep trying that there's better times coming. They're coming if I'll keep trying. My mind is a hellscape I often think I have it the worst kn the world I'm so dramatic. Mindfulness helps but it's so hard. Things used to be easier. Addiction is a bitch.
 
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Nirrend

The important is not how long you live ...
Mar 12, 2022
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Hi sweet @przeciwwymiotne

I'm really sorry to learn that you're suffering that much.. I'm also sorry to hear that your addiction is killing you.

When I read you, I guess that you mean that because of your addiction (problems you're mentioning in the title), you feel like your brain skills are totally decreased ? I guess that your mind is mostly focused about thinking to your substance/behaviour you used to take/do.. And so you feel tense, clueless, in great difficulty like a part of you were missing or like living without the substance/behaviour is too complicated ?

I guess that it's also due to the fact that it's hard for you to have a good sleep, also because you could have a strong anxiety that could pop out of nowhere.

I guess that you are really exhausted and I'm sorry for that <3

Even if I don't know exactly your addiction, everything you're living right now is normal, don't blame yourself. You're really courageous, I swear <3

You known, the simple fact of wanting to change, the simple fact of being rude against what torment you (here your addiction), is already a good sign of changes.

To put your mind in more serene states, learn to be proud of everything you do. Even if you're suffering, even if for you it's not enough, realise how much you're strong to post here in the recovery section and how much you're courageous to keep your fight against it.

Overcoming an addiction can be long, it's a rocky road with frequent feelings of relapse. But once again, this is normal and never forget that a relapse isn't definitive and each time you'll resist to it you will get stronger.

Anyway, you know better than me that recovering from addiction can't be done with a snap of the fingers. When a behaviour is changing, the individual goes through many variations (mental, physical, emotional) before reaching what he is seeking.

Continue your fight, your strong and we believe in you <3

Loving you <3
 
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darkcirclesunder

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Sep 8, 2022
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Literally me almost every day friend. im here if you want to chat. Have you tried any herbs, nootropics or medicines to help with this?
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
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Literally me almost every day friend. im here if you want to chat. Have you tried any herbs, nootropics or medicines to help with this?
I haven't, have you?
 
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makethepainstop

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Sep 16, 2022
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Every second I try to convince myself that it's worth to keep pushing keep trying that there's better times coming. They're coming if I'll keep trying. My mind is a hellscape I often think I have it the worst kn the world I'm so dramatic. Mindfulness helps but it's so hard. Things used to be easier. Addiction is a bitch.

Every second I try to convince myself that it's worth to keep pushing keep trying that there's better times coming. They're coming if I'll keep trying. My mind is a hellscape I often think I have it the worst kn the world I'm so dramatic. Mindfulness helps but it's so hard. Things used to be easier. Addiction is a bitch.
Yeah, the problem with some recreational drugs is that they make you feel just so damn good. So I can relate to your plight.♥️♥️
 
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SarRy

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Oct 5, 2022
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Focus on what you can do. Our physical spaces can be a great influence on what we do. Addiction is horrific, but physically distancing from substances can help to keep sober. You only need to live your life.
I wish you the best. I hope you find peace.
 

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