I having been planning to ctb for several months now.
I immigrated to a country with socialized medicine three years ago with recurring but high functioning depression. I have been repeated denied treatment or given grossly negligent treatment. I have spent my life savings and nearly bankrupted my family paying for private treatment to either undo contraindicated medication prescriptions from the public system, try to repair the damage they have done (both somatic and mental), or pay for care that should be covered by the 40% taxes I pay. Today I was "released" (kicked out of) an in-patient psychiatric facility after getting caught (legally) recording a meeting with the psychiatrist. I literally have him on tape suggesting treatment options, finding out I was recording the session, me explaining that it is (according to legal advice) legal for me to do so but offering to stop if he would simply verify that I had to choose between my legal rights and right to medical care. Withint 30 minutes I was discharged despite acute suicidality with no plans for follow up. Then he wrote in my offical medical record that I refused treatment. I'm finished fighting for basic dignity and responsible health care. The way the medical system is set up - this is the only psychiatric hospital in the country that can treat me (urgent treatment is limited by residential address - no second opinions allowed) and there are no private psychiatric hospitals in the entire country.
I have hired a lawyer to file a compensation claim to try and recoup some of the expenses. I have hundreds of pages of medical documents in a language that I am not fluent in and hours of audio recordings showing the public mental health providers either outright lying, omitting, or royally screwing up the official medical records plus notes for my lawyer pointing him to contemporaneous evidence or information thats only available from me. Several friends have encouraged me to go to the media with my story but that would ruin my career - but I want to leave them the ammunition to do so, should they choose. I had planned to leave my husband (lives in a different country) all my passwords and where to find the documents for the compensation claim as well as a hand written note asking two local friends to handle my personal belongings (minimal since I live in a furnished apartment). Now I am worried that the police will confiscate my hardware and prevent my husband and/or lawyer from accessing them. I don't know the local laws but my private psychologist once called the police out of suicide concerns and they didn't even show up, just called and suggested I got to the ER (which has refused to treat me four times). I don't want to tip off anyone to my plans. How can I handle potentially damning evidence of medical malpractice and ethical violations without the police accessing the, first?
I know I sound paranoid but this is completely legit. Multiple private doctors and my public GP have written strongly worded referrals and encouraged me to file complaints (which I cannot handle psychologically and are not worth paying a lawyer to do because this country has no accountability whatsoever).
Any suggestions? I can't hold out much longer so needs to be fast to implement.
I immigrated to a country with socialized medicine three years ago with recurring but high functioning depression. I have been repeated denied treatment or given grossly negligent treatment. I have spent my life savings and nearly bankrupted my family paying for private treatment to either undo contraindicated medication prescriptions from the public system, try to repair the damage they have done (both somatic and mental), or pay for care that should be covered by the 40% taxes I pay. Today I was "released" (kicked out of) an in-patient psychiatric facility after getting caught (legally) recording a meeting with the psychiatrist. I literally have him on tape suggesting treatment options, finding out I was recording the session, me explaining that it is (according to legal advice) legal for me to do so but offering to stop if he would simply verify that I had to choose between my legal rights and right to medical care. Withint 30 minutes I was discharged despite acute suicidality with no plans for follow up. Then he wrote in my offical medical record that I refused treatment. I'm finished fighting for basic dignity and responsible health care. The way the medical system is set up - this is the only psychiatric hospital in the country that can treat me (urgent treatment is limited by residential address - no second opinions allowed) and there are no private psychiatric hospitals in the entire country.
I have hired a lawyer to file a compensation claim to try and recoup some of the expenses. I have hundreds of pages of medical documents in a language that I am not fluent in and hours of audio recordings showing the public mental health providers either outright lying, omitting, or royally screwing up the official medical records plus notes for my lawyer pointing him to contemporaneous evidence or information thats only available from me. Several friends have encouraged me to go to the media with my story but that would ruin my career - but I want to leave them the ammunition to do so, should they choose. I had planned to leave my husband (lives in a different country) all my passwords and where to find the documents for the compensation claim as well as a hand written note asking two local friends to handle my personal belongings (minimal since I live in a furnished apartment). Now I am worried that the police will confiscate my hardware and prevent my husband and/or lawyer from accessing them. I don't know the local laws but my private psychologist once called the police out of suicide concerns and they didn't even show up, just called and suggested I got to the ER (which has refused to treat me four times). I don't want to tip off anyone to my plans. How can I handle potentially damning evidence of medical malpractice and ethical violations without the police accessing the, first?
I know I sound paranoid but this is completely legit. Multiple private doctors and my public GP have written strongly worded referrals and encouraged me to file complaints (which I cannot handle psychologically and are not worth paying a lawyer to do because this country has no accountability whatsoever).
Any suggestions? I can't hold out much longer so needs to be fast to implement.
