I've seen an entire variety of psychiatrists, psychologists, counselors, therapists with social work backgrounds, tried probably 80+ percent of the medications available out there over a lifetime, nothing ever worked. None of them helped.
All of their confidence in their so called good therapies and techniques, failed every single time. And this was before I became bitter about it or frustrated.
Many times over many years it was when I still believed that they could possibly help me and I had a very positive and willing cooperative attitude. I was sincere in my efforts to truly try all of their advice, for years.
I have severe PTSD, With add on diagnoses like anxiety and depression, of course. there's nothing wrong with referencing PTSD to explain to others what I have, or what you have, he or she has, after all that's what language is for. But for me, explaining that I've been diagnosed with PTSD throughout my lifetime, I wish I could just say instead that I've been through a whole lot of damaging violence and I'm very tired inside, and it's hard to navigate when I have to smile at everyone Even though I'm exhausted and just want to relax safely at home. That I'm not a man and I feel safer when I'm around an alpha male boyfriend that wants to protect me and care for me. I don't think that's a disorder, I think that's just reality. It's Natural.
I've experienced way too much violence, injuries, being kidnapped/held hostage by my stalker ex, you name it and I've been through almost everything but a war. At least officially.
All I've come to learn is that at least for many people including myself, they get you all excited about their ideas of treatment, take a bunch of payments, and at the end of the day, they are just human beings and think they might have an answer...
None of them do.
people brainwash all of us in society and make us think that "Ohhh...these are the doctors, these are the experts, specialists, they can help yooouuuu"...bullsh*t.
They're just other humans (with unrealistic egos) and frankly I have a bachelors degree myself in psychology from long ago Before I learned that it's just a subjective science and they change some details every year! One year they told everybody / university students (including me with good grades) this or that, then in another year they realized that they were actually wrong/incorrect, and then they change it again in the DSM. It's just all so ridiculous. For example, homosexuality used to be considered a mental disorder, then it changed slowly to "it's okay now orientation",...
personally I am all for whatever someone wants to do with whoever they love as long as they're over 18 and it is with consent from both. Be as bi, gay, lesbian as you want... I've known plenty of them and they are wonderful people. Good people. Smart people. Beautiful people.
But my point about psychology field of "science" is they basically said that being gay is a disorder, which was really rude.
Now it's taken out of their little diagnostic book. If you look back a Few decades ago, including a medical book that was published by doctors in the 70s, they literally said that women are not "normal" people. I'm not kidding.
Every few years, or even every year or so, they do more than just revise it, they start creating New disorders.
Now every feeling you have is basically a disorder.
Every thought you have that doesn't match theirs must be a disorder.
Or if you're not happy you must have a disorder, because life is so great.
Never mind that you've been abandoned, or traumatized, or people treat you like crap, you should just be like a smiling accepting robot and simply have no reaction right? Or that you should be over being raped within a day/1 week or it's a "disorder". Get "medication" (aka Legal drugs that mess with your brain that they are still trying to figure out/experiment with on people *patients*). Completely unrealistic.
Do you get upset or stressed? Do you feel overwhelmed? According to them, it must be a "disorder". Truly, they're the ones who are nuts.
There was even a psychology chapter title in a medical journal from the 70s written by doctors called "Are women really people?" (so laughing) So back then they were considered the experts that you should listen to, and now we know they were ridiculous. So in another 10 or 15 years from now, what will they look back on that exist now but in the future they will realize was absolutely ridiculous?
It's basically a wake up call.
You can even look it up yourself. They actually had to ask that question, and these were the so-called psychology doctors and experts. ("Are women people?") LMAO hilarious.
I efficiently use metacognition, awareness of my thoughts and patterns, etc. I've learned that the nervous system is very powerful, brain connections change after trauma, and it's all designed that way by nature to protect oneself from dangers. Once you've already seen that feeling safe/security in an unpredictable environment is an illusion and that you do need to be very careful of who you are around, you begin to understand that it's not a disorder...it's an adaptation.
What people need to understand is that humans have not yet invented a cure for PTSD, depression, anxiety in the nervous system, because it is from biological, physiological, and neurological changes, plus damage from the experiences in the environment.
Animals Out in the wild have developed an internal mechanism and system to shake off the negative energy, but even then, animals learn and get conditioned by their environment as well, that doesn't make them "crazy". Think of the graceful deer that gets easily spooked when you move suddenly… Does it have a disorder? Or has it just learned that predators often want to chase it and try to capture it, so it has adapted to its environment.
The deer's reaction of fear is purely a reflection of its environment and the corresponding experiences.
it's laughable now to look back and remember that a shrink said there was a chemical imbalance to be "treated" after my ex had violently attacked me, held me hostage at knife point for a couple of days, and when I was crying he said it's a chemical imbalance. This is from someone who commented that he wished they would bring back brain lobotomies and operate on/remove sections of people's brains when they get depressed. (horror show, no thanks)
Really? I said well who wouldn't be upset after all that violence? I asked him have you ever been kidnapped a knife point?
Do you know what it's like?
Do you know what it's like when someone you thought you could trust turned out to be a monster?
Am I supposed to be happy and smiling? Who the hell wouldn't be crying? Truly, I told him he was insane and he should quit his job.
People are not born depressed, something causes damage and creates it, it's a reaction to something toxic and damaging. It does not happen in a vacuum.
Truly, they're going to look back on this era and realize how barbaric it was to tell people to take pills to "cure/control/medicate" themselves when they're just reacting naturally to toxic experiences and damaging environments.
It shouldn't be considered a mental disorder if you get upset when someone's abusive to you for example.
Or if you get injured from a car accident and now you're afraid of being in traffic around tailgaters or road ragers. It's like, how is that "mental"? It's a reality.... these drivers are everywhere and you have to be extremely cautious to avoid injuries and accidents. There are a lot of cruel people out there, narcissistic, vindictive...it's a reality.
Another example, having anxiety about being around a bully doesn't mean that you have a "disorder", the bully is the one creating a toxic threat that causes natural stress.
So unless you have an organic brain problem that's physiological, or have major hallucinations like schizophrenia, everything else is not likely to be something that you just need "help" with, you're just reacting normally to bad experiences or a bad environment. You need more caring friends, not paying someone to talk to.
It's so backwards and ironic.
People that go around telling themselves everything is so great are the blind ones with a "mental disorder" if anything. But I digress…
They need to stop blaming the victims, as we are basically the symptoms of what's wrong in our environment. We are not the problem, the chaos and the damage caused by our environment is the problem. Change the environment, and that will help everyone. All they do is make excuses, Theories...that don't actually help any of us beyond a few we'll-intended minutes of illusion or a false hope.
And with shrinks, as soon as the money runs out, then suddenly they can't see you anymore and they don't care anymore.
To me it's just insulting and it's a total waste of my time and energy.
Plus I got really tired of hearing the same mundane questions "have you tried journaling? Have you tried deep breathing or meditation?" Give me a break already.
It was like "Yes, I've tried ALL of those things way back years ago." (eyes rolling, gee)
Total waste of effort and money thrown away.
Going out with friends was far more productive In alleviating my suffering temporarily, but at least for me, medications are just a way of trying to numb my suffering, no cure, no fix.
Nothing.
I respect you if you're trying to feel better, make your life better, and find some hope. I commend you for that and respect you.
Just consider other alternatives, support groups, religion, more friends, distracting movies, relaxing hobbies...whatever floats your boat. I just got tired of trying with the so-called professional help out there. It's also really annoying when you're smarter than your own shrink. LOL
If you still want to consider it, I would ask them very politely what their course of treatment would be, and ask them to give examples. If you don't like the answer, thank them and leave. I'm sure they'll tell you something like well first we need to have many visits, and then I could tell you what the treatment would be. But in truth, cognitive behavioral therapy is something you can look up online and apply to yourself on your own for free.
It's not a miracle cure, don't get too excited. I say that so you don't get your hopes up too much, but I do hope that you find something that brings you comfort and relief. Whatever that maybe.
Just a thought for you, hope it works out for you.
