I'm once again curious about the demographic here...
Did you once feel purpose and meaning in your life? Did you somehow lose it? Do you think you can get it back or is it more likely lost? Or, have you never experienced any sense of meaning in life?
Sometimes I wonder in terms of 'recovery'. (If you accept the term.) Who are more likely to try to live rather than suicide? Sometimes I think it's people who had meaning or hope but lost it along the way. At least they know what they're aiming to get back to. But then, is the prospect/ pain of not getting back to that maybe more intense than someone who has always just reluctantly lived, feeling apathetic about everything? Does life actually become harder for someone who's always found it shit? Maybe it does just in terms of the amount of shit they've already had to go through and, the prospect of more ahead with no hope guiding them.
It's not meant to be a competition though. I think both states are utterly awful to be in. I'm not sure either always have a way out either.
As for me, I used to find meaning. Mostly in pursuing a creative career. The feeling has largely gone. It's like I still do it in body but not so much spirit now. I used to really love and value my friends and family but maybe they've been the biggest source of pain when they've left- died or, we've grown apart. So- I don't really believe in that either. It's not imposible one or both could return but, I don't really see why they should.
How about you? Any thoughts or experiences you want to share?
Did you once feel purpose and meaning in your life? Did you somehow lose it? Do you think you can get it back or is it more likely lost? Or, have you never experienced any sense of meaning in life?
Sometimes I wonder in terms of 'recovery'. (If you accept the term.) Who are more likely to try to live rather than suicide? Sometimes I think it's people who had meaning or hope but lost it along the way. At least they know what they're aiming to get back to. But then, is the prospect/ pain of not getting back to that maybe more intense than someone who has always just reluctantly lived, feeling apathetic about everything? Does life actually become harder for someone who's always found it shit? Maybe it does just in terms of the amount of shit they've already had to go through and, the prospect of more ahead with no hope guiding them.
It's not meant to be a competition though. I think both states are utterly awful to be in. I'm not sure either always have a way out either.
As for me, I used to find meaning. Mostly in pursuing a creative career. The feeling has largely gone. It's like I still do it in body but not so much spirit now. I used to really love and value my friends and family but maybe they've been the biggest source of pain when they've left- died or, we've grown apart. So- I don't really believe in that either. It's not imposible one or both could return but, I don't really see why they should.
How about you? Any thoughts or experiences you want to share?
