Reasons for Leaving

[Silently Dying]

I'll be leaving Sunday. I'm an empath and want one person to care that I'm gone. So, for better or worse, I'm going to tell you why I'm leaving. You may not care and that's fine. Please don't leave negative replies. I'm in enough pain.

I've been through a lot in my life. My "mother" (and I use that term loosely) was a narcissist who never hugged me, never told me she loved me. All that came out of her mouth were negative sayings, "you're too ugly," you're too stupid,, you'll never find anyone to love you. When you've heard that crap for so many years you believe it after all this is your mother telling you this. I attempted suicide when I was 15. She told the doctor I was nothing but a selfish bitch. I left home and tried to make it on my own. Being an empath I've encountered so many people who have used me and hurt me without a second thought. My heart has been broken so many times I don't even count anymore. My little girl was murdered and my father died shortly after. My 17 year old cat is dying.

I've been an alcoholic, raped, beaten, emotionally abused. I've overcome all of that, but now my life can't be fixed. I'm in debt, need eye surgery (or I'll go blind), lost my job, I'm old (63), have no family and no friends (nobody likes hanging around a depressed person). there's just so much pain and not having anyone in my life to talk to is just too much.

Not looking for sympathy, just understanding

 

[Dingo67]

It sounds like you've had a really tough life. It's really not fair what people go through and what people do to other people. I think you should be proud you made it as far as you have, considering the hand you were dealt.

 

[Silently Dying]

It sounds like you've had a really tough life. It's really not fair what people go through and what people do to other people. I think you should be proud you made it as far as you have, considering the hand you were dealt.

Thank you for your kind words

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I agree, you've done well and made it far with the shitty hand life dealt you. No one deserves that from a mother. I may not know you, but I do think the world is losing a great person. I will care that you're gone, but I don't judge you, or anyone, on their decision to leave. I completely understand why, and I commend your strength in making such a decision.

 

[Silently Dying]

I agree, you've done well and made it far with the shitty hand life dealt you. No one deserves that from a mother. I may not know you, but I do think the world is losing a great person. I will care that you're gone, but I don't judge you, or anyone, on their decision to leave. I completely understand why, and I commend your strength in making such a decision.

Thank you

 

[fallingtopieces]

It pains me to read your story. You have lived through an enormous amount of pain and suffering, since you were young. May you find peace in this life.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you've been through, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it really sounds like you've suffered so much but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.