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miss you, A.A.
- Sep 14, 2023
- 34
Before anything, please tell me if this is or isn't the right place to post this. If the option is available (I haven't been on this site in a bit, sorry) I will delete this post as soon as I find out it's the wrong place.
As for the post:
Hi everyone. I'm once again back on sanctioned suicide, as I am every few months. Today I wanted to talk about a weird obsession i had ever since I was thirteen. I need help getting rid of it.
True crime has been a pretty big part of my life. I always found comfort in researching their cases and reading manifestos to hear their thoughts, but it honestly just feels weird and edgy somewhat relating to them. The bullying, the isolation, all of it. But a mass shooter? Really? It's so weird and it genuinely makes me feel disgusted with myself. Lacking empathy was normal for me, until I gave myself a reality check. It's disgusting caring more about what the murderer went through instead of the victims and their family but it's so hard when the shooter had the same problems as me. It's like I can see myself in them.
My question is: How do I stop this obsession? How do I stop feeling bad for literal murders instead of the victims? This feeling of disgust is one of the bigger reasons I've been planning how to CTB, but to be honest, I wouldn't ditch my plan just because I stopped the true crime interest. Thank you, have a good rest of your day.
As for the post:
Hi everyone. I'm once again back on sanctioned suicide, as I am every few months. Today I wanted to talk about a weird obsession i had ever since I was thirteen. I need help getting rid of it.
True crime has been a pretty big part of my life. I always found comfort in researching their cases and reading manifestos to hear their thoughts, but it honestly just feels weird and edgy somewhat relating to them. The bullying, the isolation, all of it. But a mass shooter? Really? It's so weird and it genuinely makes me feel disgusted with myself. Lacking empathy was normal for me, until I gave myself a reality check. It's disgusting caring more about what the murderer went through instead of the victims and their family but it's so hard when the shooter had the same problems as me. It's like I can see myself in them.
My question is: How do I stop this obsession? How do I stop feeling bad for literal murders instead of the victims? This feeling of disgust is one of the bigger reasons I've been planning how to CTB, but to be honest, I wouldn't ditch my plan just because I stopped the true crime interest. Thank you, have a good rest of your day.
