PlushieLover
XII - THE HANGED MAN
- Mar 24, 2021
- 118
Hello guys, I haven't been on this forum for a while but it was because I was busy in a weird way. This is a continuation of my old "I can't bear my repentance" post so is going to be easier if you had read that.
I talked to my ex girlfriend to say sorry and all that stuff and we are good now. Awesome right? No, instead of stopping talking, we decided that we will continue seeing each other. We talked, we shared pretty personal secrets, I told her about my suicide plan, and she told me about something equally severe. In my attempt at redemption, I swore to my ex that I would not commit suicide if she tried to seek psychological help. I'm helping her with searching a trustful psychologist and in general I'm there for her. Awesome right? No, the only reason for my existence is HER. Just her and nothing else, nothing else. I need her, I want her, I love her so fucking much. Is an obsession, and I know something is wrong with me but I just don't give a single fucking shit anymore, she is everything, my life is meaningless without her, literally. The bizarre part of the story is that she is also in love with me, for no reason but she is. We want so much to be together but her parents hate me, her friends hate me, and everyone on her life hates me basically. Today we saw each other, we hugged, we kissed and all that shit, all that secretly. She came home late and her parents punished her for like 2 months, all for being irresponsible and not taking her home early. I'm just trying to make her happy, my life is useless, my life is her and I can't never do anything for her. I'm tied to this shitty world until I'm sure she is doing okay. Well, that's all the story. I wish I can make her happy, that is all my purpose at this point.
I talked to my ex girlfriend to say sorry and all that stuff and we are good now. Awesome right? No, instead of stopping talking, we decided that we will continue seeing each other. We talked, we shared pretty personal secrets, I told her about my suicide plan, and she told me about something equally severe. In my attempt at redemption, I swore to my ex that I would not commit suicide if she tried to seek psychological help. I'm helping her with searching a trustful psychologist and in general I'm there for her. Awesome right? No, the only reason for my existence is HER. Just her and nothing else, nothing else. I need her, I want her, I love her so fucking much. Is an obsession, and I know something is wrong with me but I just don't give a single fucking shit anymore, she is everything, my life is meaningless without her, literally. The bizarre part of the story is that she is also in love with me, for no reason but she is. We want so much to be together but her parents hate me, her friends hate me, and everyone on her life hates me basically. Today we saw each other, we hugged, we kissed and all that shit, all that secretly. She came home late and her parents punished her for like 2 months, all for being irresponsible and not taking her home early. I'm just trying to make her happy, my life is useless, my life is her and I can't never do anything for her. I'm tied to this shitty world until I'm sure she is doing okay. Well, that's all the story. I wish I can make her happy, that is all my purpose at this point.
