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- Feb 12, 2023
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i've never been in a romantic relationship, but they're all i can think about. the closest i've gotten to "dating" someone was when i was super young (primary or middle school age) and we just texted "i love you" for a couple days before "breaking up".
i'm just not desirable. everyone just gets tired of me. i don't think i'm very unattractive most of the time. i put a lot of effort into my appearance and i'm often told that i'm pretty or cute, i've had a countless amount of people confess their feelings to me throughout my life, etc. but that doesn't really matter to me anymore because looks aren't enough. no matter how i look, people still get tired of me because i'm most likely revolting in some other way.
i don't want to date someone just because i'm lonely. i hate the idea of flings or casual romantic relationships, and i feel like that's what most people (my age) are looking for, even if they don't entirely think they do.
me being trans (ftm) just makes everything that much worse. i can't transition irl at the moment, so everyone i meet/have met sees me as a woman.every person who has confessed to me, complimented my looks, or whatever else,,, they were doing that to a woman. they were interested in a woman. even if i found someone and started dating them, i would eventually have to come out and the chances of them still wanting to continue dating me even after i transition are probably nonexistent.
i've considered dating apps and stating that i'm pre-t, but that's not an option because that would require me outing myself.
and anyways, i still have a naturally feminine appearance, so i'll probably never look like a man. if i find someone who actually wants to date a trans man (and doesn't just sexualize trans men or treat them like fetishes), they would probably want to be with a trans man who actually looks like a fucking man.
i truly do think a serious romantic relationship would be beneficial for my mental health, and i hate hearing people say "a relationship won't solve your problems." like, yes... i'm aware. i know i will still be severely depressed, my problems won't go away, but acting like these relationships can't/won't aid in someone's mental health improvement is a really stupid take. (depends on the context and situation, of course, but in my case, i am almost positive it would help.)
i feel like one of those loser incels that people love to meme. i don't hate any group of people, though. i just fucking despise seeing couples or hearing about someone's relationship because i want what they have.
i'm just not desirable. everyone just gets tired of me. i don't think i'm very unattractive most of the time. i put a lot of effort into my appearance and i'm often told that i'm pretty or cute, i've had a countless amount of people confess their feelings to me throughout my life, etc. but that doesn't really matter to me anymore because looks aren't enough. no matter how i look, people still get tired of me because i'm most likely revolting in some other way.
i don't want to date someone just because i'm lonely. i hate the idea of flings or casual romantic relationships, and i feel like that's what most people (my age) are looking for, even if they don't entirely think they do.
me being trans (ftm) just makes everything that much worse. i can't transition irl at the moment, so everyone i meet/have met sees me as a woman.every person who has confessed to me, complimented my looks, or whatever else,,, they were doing that to a woman. they were interested in a woman. even if i found someone and started dating them, i would eventually have to come out and the chances of them still wanting to continue dating me even after i transition are probably nonexistent.
i've considered dating apps and stating that i'm pre-t, but that's not an option because that would require me outing myself.
and anyways, i still have a naturally feminine appearance, so i'll probably never look like a man. if i find someone who actually wants to date a trans man (and doesn't just sexualize trans men or treat them like fetishes), they would probably want to be with a trans man who actually looks like a fucking man.
i truly do think a serious romantic relationship would be beneficial for my mental health, and i hate hearing people say "a relationship won't solve your problems." like, yes... i'm aware. i know i will still be severely depressed, my problems won't go away, but acting like these relationships can't/won't aid in someone's mental health improvement is a really stupid take. (depends on the context and situation, of course, but in my case, i am almost positive it would help.)
i feel like one of those loser incels that people love to meme. i don't hate any group of people, though. i just fucking despise seeing couples or hearing about someone's relationship because i want what they have.