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potatocube

potatocube

Impulsive & Irrational
Aug 31, 2024
29
Couldn't sleep so I decide to work on regime. Finally received everything that I need to catch the bus :happy: Bus is right there. I've got one hand in my pocket, and the other one is holding the valuable ticket. Departure time set in two days, on Oct.13. I will use the SN method.

My planned regime:
October 12
8:00 - 10 mg Metoclopramide
16:00 - 10 mg Meto
24:00 - 10 mg Meto​

October 13
8:00 - 10mg Meto
16:00 - 10mg Meto​
Begin fasting (food).​
17:00 - Arrive at hotel
20:00 - test SN purity​
Write note on paper, warning housekeeping to call police after checkout time.​
22:00 - Begin fasting (water)​
Shower.​
23:00 - 1000mg Tylenol
23:20 - 30mg Meto​
Prepare 50mg Trazodone.
Weight out SN 25g*3.
Measure out water.
Place plastic drop cloth on bed.
Prepare a trash can in case of vomit.​
23:45 - take Traz
23:50 - mix 3 glass of SN drink with plastic spoon
24:00 Drink 1st cup, if needed, 2nd and 3rd cup.​
Listen to music.
Say goodbye.
Wipe out phone.
Layback :zzz:

I'm grateful to have found this site. I feel like I've taken more from the community than I've given. I appreciate every shared experience, whether of success or failure. Wishing everyone the best in making the right decisions and achieving success. If I get too anxious, the hotel is really close to the emergency room of a hospital I prefer.
I'll try to update in the same post with my thoughts and feelings after the ingestion.
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

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Best of luck. Hope you find peace.
 
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hope you have a safe journey
 
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Good luck! I hope you find peace!
 
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SVEN

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Nothing but good wishes and the hope you find rest and peace, whatever your decision. Good luck.
 
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athiestjoe

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Wishing you the absolute best; may you find peace & serenity!
 
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ezziiooo678

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i wish you well and hope your mind is at ease now
 
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potatocube

potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
29
Took my first meto. Man heart already raising? Haha
I'm still deciding whether if I should continue on my antidepressant medication.
Serotonin syndrome
Taking metoclopramide with selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) or serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) can increase the risk of serotonin syndrome, a life-threatening condition. Symptoms include confusion, hallucinations, seizures, and changes in blood pressure.
Which is worse? A withdrawn symptom or a serotonin syndrome? I don't know.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the peace you search for, best wishes.
 
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Unspoken7612

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Jul 14, 2024
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They're both pretty bad but also variable. Have you ever missed a dose of your antidepressant before? That gives you an idea of what 24 hour withdrawal would be like. Did you experience side effects when you first went on it (especially nausea or chills)? That gives an idea of what serotonin syndrome could be like.

You are taking a lot of meto. If you're concerned about the risk of meto causing SS, you could take much less, potentially as little as one dose today to see what impact it has, then the 30mg at the end. But I understand you might want to take a fuller regiment. But while SS is a theoretical risk, it seems unlikely in these low dosages.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

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Aug 26, 2024
435
Goodluck! I hope you find peace :heart:
 
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potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
29
They're both pretty bad but also variable. Have you ever missed a dose of your antidepressant before? That gives you an idea of what 24 hour withdrawal would be like. Did you experience side effects when you first went on it (especially nausea or chills)? That gives an idea of what serotonin syndrome could be like.

You are taking a lot of meto. If you're concerned about the risk of meto causing SS, you could take much less, potentially as little as one dose today to see what impact it has, then the 30mg at the end. But I understand you might want to take a fuller regiment. But while SS is a theoretical risk, it seems unlikely in these low dosages.
Thanks! Now I have a better idea. I've experienced both lol. Decide to skip antidepressants🖖
 
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potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
29
Happened to be rushing on the blood testing, decide to open the vacuum sealed salt a day earlier. Glad I did. Blood turned brown with in 3-5 seconds?
Will do aquarium test kit tomorrow.
 
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Are you feeling okay on the meto doses for day 1?
 
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potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
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Are you feeling okay on the meto doses for day 1?
Yes, I'm feeling okay, thanks for asking. Just some regular headache and tiredness due to switching medication and withdraw. I would say the 24:00 pill is very uneasy as I am sleepy and had to wake myself up to follow the regime?
Take this medicine (meto) on an empty stomach, at least 30 minutes before meals and at bedtime. If you are using the disintegrating tablet, make sure your hands are dry before you handle it. Do not open the blister pack that contains the tablet until you are ready to take it. If you take it 3 times a day, then take a dose every 8 hours. Wait at least 6 hours between each dose, even if you're sick (vomit). This is to avoid a possible overdose.
 
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potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
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Feeling so miserable from withdrawal symptoms 😇 no energy to go anywhere/do anything. No appetite. Going to the hotel is going to be my major accomplishment of the day.
 
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a.hamza.13

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Apr 15, 2024
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Good luck on your journey. I hope you find eternal peace.
<3
 
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SVEN

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Best wishes.
 
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potatocube

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Last meal:
apple, cabbage, fish cake, soup, matcha latte 😋
 
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potatocube

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Aug 31, 2024
29
A fish-flavored cake sounds 🤮

/s :wink:
Haha fish cake is not cake.
IMG 0465



So I did the aqua test.
Bottle 1: 500mL water
Bottle 2: 500mL water
SN weighted: 2.5g (1 cent=2.5g, scale reads 5g)
Saw some posts being nervous about the purity made me nervous as well. Shaky hands during the experiment :mmm:
IMG 0462
Overview
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Test strip #1
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Test strip #2

I used 500mL of spring water, according to Vizzy's test. I judge that the springwater has 0.5 or 0 ppm. From the first reading, which I dipped more seconds than required, gives me a reading of 5.0-10 ppm. The second reading, with a dip of 2 seconds, gives me a reading of 1.0-5.0 ppm. From the test I can conclude that DMC SN is definitely not 100% purity, as the reading is not 10 ppm. But with the results from both blood and strip tests, I am not too worried?
Let me know what you think :hihi:
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
513
Haha fish cake is not cake.
View attachment 152501



So I did the aqua test.
Saw some posts being nervous about the purity made me nervous as well. Shaky hands during the experiment :mmm:

I used 500 mL of spring water, according to Vizzy's test. I judge that the springwater has 0.5 or 0 ppm. From the first reading, which I dipped more seconds than required, gives me a reading of 5.0-10 ppm. The second reading, with a dip of 2 seconds, gives me a reading of 1.0-5.0 ppm. From the test I can conclude that DMC SN is definitely not 100% purity, as the reading is not 10 ppm. But with the results from both blood and strip tests, I am not too worried?
Let me know what you think :hihi:
Test strips are not an accurate gauge of purity, as we recently found out after some scares in September. They were never intended to be accurate tests (given they're for fish aquariums), and there's a lot of variability (for one, you apparently need distilled water, not spring water, for the best results). They're honestly better for simply detecting whether there's nitrite at all, rather than actual purity. A lab test is the best way to test it, but the vast majority of people aren't going to or can't do that.

If it's any consolation, there have been a few recent CTBs with DMC's stuff, like Maynoname earlier this month, shadow999 in late September, and Beyond_Repair in August (and these are just the ones I remember). And anyways, DMC has been a reliable source for a while now, so I don't think he's selling sub-par SN. It's dirt cheap sold in bulk, and it's honestly not worth the effort or risk to sell fake SN or simple curing salt, especially given he has a cash cow to milk here on the forum; suddenly shipping out impure SN would mean business would dry up quickly.
 
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RABITIA

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Jul 21, 2024
18
Have you tried everything to improve your situation before deciding to ctb?
I will give this advice to everyone, never do it if there are solutions for your problems out there, you can always ctb after you tried everything to solve your problems.

Unfortunately there are a lot of severe permanent problems which can't be fixed, I wish you the best op 🙏
 
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Aug 31, 2024
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That is indeed a LOT of salt :aw:
 
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GalacticWarrior777

im at fault for all of this. try to help but hurt
Sep 24, 2024
166
That is indeed a LOT of salt :aw:
holy smokes it is a lot of salt 😱

Idk how will I be able to handle that lmfao. Anyways, good luck man! How much time left until you ctb? its practically 11 pm for me, and I wonder should I stay with you until the end
 
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justpathetic

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Sep 15, 2024
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Couldn't sleep so I decide to work on regime. Finally received everything that I need to catch the bus :happy: Bus is right there. I've got one hand in my pocket, and the other one is holding the valuable ticket. Departure time set in two days, on Oct.13. I will use the SN method.

My planned regime:
October 12
8:00 - 10 mg Metoclopramide
16:00 - 10 mg Meto
24:00 - 10 mg Meto​

October 13
8:00 - 10mg Meto
16:00 - 10mg Meto​
Begin fasting (food).​
17:00 - Arrive at hotel
20:00 - test SN purity​
Write note on paper, warning housekeeping to call police after checkout time.​
22:00 - Begin fasting (water)​
Shower.​
23:00 - 1000mg Tylenol
23:20 - 30mg Meto​
Prepare 50mg Trazodone.
Weight out SN 25g*3.
Measure out water.
Place plastic drop cloth on bed.
Prepare a trash can in case of vomit.​
23:45 - take Traz
23:50 - mix 3 glass of SN drink with plastic spoon
24:00 Drink 1st cup, if needed, 2nd and 3rd cup.​
Listen to music.
Say goodbye.
Wipe out phone.
Layback :zzz:

I'm grateful to have found this site. I feel like I've taken more from the community than I've given. I appreciate every shared experience, whether of success or failure. Wishing everyone the best in making the right decisions and achieving success. If I get too anxious, the hotel is really close to the emergency room of a hospital I prefer.
I'll try to update in the same post with my thoughts and feelings after the ingestion.
I hope all goes well for you and I wish you nothing but peace and happiness.
 
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dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
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Got some updates, just talked to potatocube via phone. They had a panic attack and decided to call the suicide hotline which called for ambulance and cops to take them to hospital. They think they poisoned themselves by touching the SN and then rubbing their eyes which made them sick. Unsure, but their SI may also be strong.

Will keep thread updated, but they should get out in a week.
 
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im at fault for all of this. try to help but hurt
Sep 24, 2024
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Got some updates, just talked to potatocube via phone. They had a panic attack and decided to call the suicide hotline which called for ambulance and cops to take them to hospital. They think they poisoned themselves by touching the SN and then rubbing their eyes which made them sick. Unsure, but their SI may also be strong.

Will keep thread updated, but they should get out in a week.

That's tough, good that he called it if he did panic though. Wish he recovers soon
 
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donwhitman

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They're both pretty bad but also variable. Have you ever missed a dose of your antidepressant before? That gives you an idea of what 24 hour withdrawal would be like. Did you experience side effects when you first went on it (especially nausea or chills)? That gives an idea of what serotonin syndrome could be like.

You are taking a lot of meto. If you're concerned about the risk of meto causing SS, you could take much less, potentially as little as one dose today to see what impact it has, then the 30mg at the end. But I understand you might want to take a fuller regiment. But while SS is a theoretical risk, it seems unlikely in these low dosages.
Missing a dose of Sertraline already makes you suicidal.
 
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