Venting [SELF HARM MENTION] I feel the need to do SH and i don't know how to fight it back

[Houzor]

a few months ago my family discovered my SH scars and for obvious reasons I have not been able to do it again and everything was fine for a few months until recently I started to feel anxiety that I had for lack of self harm to the point that I started scraching until my skin started to come out.
I can't get any more razors/knifes because I'm pretty guarded about my purchases and I can't keep the anxiety down either because I already tend to keep too much stuff to myself so I have these sudden anxiety attacks where I do too many stupid things that I don't want to do.
I don't even feel that these thoughts are appropriate to the situation, the problems I used to have are gone but the suicidal thoughts didn't go away and the SH was a way to avoid doing something without giving it much thought.

I really don't know what I hope to accomplish by making this post other than to get the thoughts out, feel free to comment on the situation if you want to.
[sorry for any spelling mistakes, English is not my main language].

 

[_Maya]

I remember seeing a video about how if you ever feel like self-harming, to put tape on the part you want to cut and rip it off.
It never really helped me with my urges, but maybe you'll have more luck than me.