Lycoreco
Member
- Sep 21, 2023
- 19
I've been self harming for years now, and there are some questions i've always asked myself that I don't know the answer to. I posted this on reddit but apparently it was "promoting self harm" (which it's not)
Firstly, is it normal to hesitate? I sit there with the blade to my skin with the full intent but as soon as I move my arm it's almost like i'm instinctively holding back, resulting in wounds that are not satisfactory for me. Is it iust me? Or is it a human reaction. Do I lack the resolve? I don't know. I just wish I could do the damage I used to, but it feels impossible. Secondly, does the hair on your arm have any affect on wounds? Should I shave my arms so I can get a cleaner cut? Or is it the blade thats dull? How do I tell when the blade is dull? Maybe it's the blade and my hair's fault. Maybe it's my fault.
Should I not cut in the shower? Does doing it dry help? I just want to go deeper, it's not enough for me.
Any advice or answers are appreciated. Thank you.
Firstly, is it normal to hesitate? I sit there with the blade to my skin with the full intent but as soon as I move my arm it's almost like i'm instinctively holding back, resulting in wounds that are not satisfactory for me. Is it iust me? Or is it a human reaction. Do I lack the resolve? I don't know. I just wish I could do the damage I used to, but it feels impossible. Secondly, does the hair on your arm have any affect on wounds? Should I shave my arms so I can get a cleaner cut? Or is it the blade thats dull? How do I tell when the blade is dull? Maybe it's the blade and my hair's fault. Maybe it's my fault.
Should I not cut in the shower? Does doing it dry help? I just want to go deeper, it's not enough for me.
Any advice or answers are appreciated. Thank you.