Lirisu
piss drinker
- Jun 30, 2024
- 17
A normal person wouldn't deliberately act dishonestly, especially with those they consider friends. I feel like I'm suffocating in every relationship I've been in. I find it difficult to be honest with them for reasons I can't quite understand. Yet, I behave as if my feelings have been betrayed when, in reality, my dishonesty is to blame. I act like I'm the victim, feeling lonely because I perceive others as rejecting me. But the truth is, I'm the one pushing myself away and, in the process, hurting those I enjoy the company of. Isn't that the worst? I create this cycle of distance and pain, blaming others, and lashing out with violence.