cowbain
teach me empathy
- Jul 16, 2019
- 143
I don't feel like the therapist I have now cares or is helpful. I've been seeing her for 4 months now and I haven't learned anything or made any progress. In ways she's actually made things worse. For example, my parents are really abusive and isolating so she told me that I should try public transportation just as a small step to become more independent. I did that and then I saw a family member that sexually abused me during my childhood while on the bus. I told her about this and her response wasn't really that supportive. On another occasion, I told her about the pain I've been having for almost 2 years, and that hopefully it's a terminal medical condition so I can just die, and when I looked at her face she was trying her best to hold in her laughter. There's also been incidents where she's cancelled our appointments, never returned phone calls that she said she would, ignored my text messages, and I notice that when we do have appointments she doesn't come out her office into the waiting room until 5-10 minutes after our scheduled appointment. I'm sure there's more red flags but my brain fog is impacting my memory :/ the only reason im hesitant to get a new therapist is because I've done this already like 3 times before and it's exhausting to keep going through this process of trying to find a good therapist with limited options because of Medicaid. Ive kind of come to the conclusion that Medicaid therapists suck, it feels like I'm talking to a school counselor tbh, but unfortunately I can't pay out of pocket for therapy rn. I'm also nervous because I know my parents probably won't be supportive of me changing therapists. Anyways.. advice would be greatly appreciated x