dandan
One more attempt on life.
- Feb 18, 2019
- 1,298
so its a new week,
I did not hang out with the girl I like, and she says she likes me too,
I guess stop smoking cigarrettes and weed on Friday made me a little edgy and anxious
she does not know I smoked weed, perhaps I should tell her in case it comes out? hm... maybe im not being honest,
well I've told her about my problems and my recovery, and the recovery is the best part.
I stopped working out and eating, my weight dropped tremendously, around 13 pounds in two months.
I got to get back to the gym or I would be a skinny flesh to the bone man and its not cool.
Either way, I continue gettting my Testo shot every week, which is like my depression pill.
And I also take Dianabol pill every now and then.
My intentions are to balance my testo levels, im not pursuing (maybe a little) a nice phyisical body with muscles.
I stopped going to the gym, but I learned to program a type of hybrid mobile app. nice. it was worth it.
but this hybrid mobile app, doesnt help my current employment situation.
my employment situation, is, I gotta meet deadlines and work on what im asked to do. mainly.
and get better at my job.
I will ask around today what I need to get better and be better informed.
I started working out yesterday again.
So I might hit the gym in the next few minutes, well, I dont own a car, so I will go walking to the gym.
The weekend I did moved forward with my mobile app.
I have the list of pending things to do, is not that big, is not small either.
theres a small group of pending things to make it work, I can then modify it and improve it.
I got to make videos and explain what the hell is it about.
Ive got to define that myself, if things are too different I should focus on 1 first.
Got to see.
I wrote the above yesterday, but did not posted.
Today I have 6 months of not feeling like ctb'ing thanks to a once a week 1mL cipionate testosterone shot.
thank you doctor!!! maybe this is it!!!
are my balls gonna keep shriinking?? LOL
Its different life, when I cant complaint about being depressed and being down, and thinking about ctb'ing...
sometimes, im like: "what the hell should I be thinking about?" because thinking about ctb'ing was normal... but not anymore... I need a substitue...
I did not hang out with the girl I like, and she says she likes me too,
I guess stop smoking cigarrettes and weed on Friday made me a little edgy and anxious
she does not know I smoked weed, perhaps I should tell her in case it comes out? hm... maybe im not being honest,
well I've told her about my problems and my recovery, and the recovery is the best part.
I stopped working out and eating, my weight dropped tremendously, around 13 pounds in two months.
I got to get back to the gym or I would be a skinny flesh to the bone man and its not cool.
Either way, I continue gettting my Testo shot every week, which is like my depression pill.
And I also take Dianabol pill every now and then.
My intentions are to balance my testo levels, im not pursuing (maybe a little) a nice phyisical body with muscles.
I stopped going to the gym, but I learned to program a type of hybrid mobile app. nice. it was worth it.
but this hybrid mobile app, doesnt help my current employment situation.
my employment situation, is, I gotta meet deadlines and work on what im asked to do. mainly.
and get better at my job.
I will ask around today what I need to get better and be better informed.
I started working out yesterday again.
So I might hit the gym in the next few minutes, well, I dont own a car, so I will go walking to the gym.
The weekend I did moved forward with my mobile app.
I have the list of pending things to do, is not that big, is not small either.
theres a small group of pending things to make it work, I can then modify it and improve it.
I got to make videos and explain what the hell is it about.
Ive got to define that myself, if things are too different I should focus on 1 first.
Got to see.
I wrote the above yesterday, but did not posted.
Today I have 6 months of not feeling like ctb'ing thanks to a once a week 1mL cipionate testosterone shot.
thank you doctor!!! maybe this is it!!!
are my balls gonna keep shriinking?? LOL
Its different life, when I cant complaint about being depressed and being down, and thinking about ctb'ing...
sometimes, im like: "what the hell should I be thinking about?" because thinking about ctb'ing was normal... but not anymore... I need a substitue...
