SN. Happy

[rachybee]

My SN should arrive soon. Like within a week. And I am SO EXCITED! tho it's Christmas so might be delayed. But to have something that is practically 100% guaranteed to work. I feel free

Happy. It's gonna be done. Like I can breathe

 

[S like suicide]

I envy you so much

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relieved at having that option, I wish you the best.

 

[rachybee]

I understand why you'd feel relieved at having that option, I wish you the best.

Thankyou xx
I do feel a bit odd though? Because I am likely gonna die. Finally. I feel happy. But then weird because I'm happy.

 

[LukaParrot]

I'm heavly depressed but feel happy too when my SN arrived.

I smile a little and dont remember when was my last real smile, fake ones, we have to do for some people we still care.

It's a relief, like a weight off your shoulders because now you can rest.

I feel very bad to say this, but congrats on having what you want, and hope that at least you tried everything that was in your reach. Do things at your pace, your time, your decision, it's your life. Because today I feel peace at my choice.

I think in some years, this will be a controlled substance, it's so weird that people who did terrible things die in painless ways and people like me/part of us here at least tried everything, talk, therapy, so many prescribed drugs, to reach a end road, resources depleated and a hand shake from a doctor like, no money so no more possible treatment.

 

[rachybee]

It's a weird one isn't it. It's like you know this substance will kill you. And that's what you want. It's just there in your hands.

I can't wait.