Darlington
Member
- Oct 17, 2024
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Sorry if this is not fitting, this is my first post as a long time lurker. For context I've taken 1 attempt on my life as a teenager, and still consider on a erratic basis.
Hello, to introduce I work as a conductor for a high speed operator in the uk. I've only been qualified for about 4 weeks.
I allways knew it was a possibility, but to have a fatality within a month of qualifying is very unlucky for me
On Saturday a man jumped in front of my train at a local station aproaching a major city, my train was passing express so passed the platform at speed. I was in the rear cab at the time and saw the guy get smeared across the platform. This has fucked with me a bit.
The train was stoped for about 2 hours while the police cleared things up. Both me and the driver saw it happen, and I had to made the anouncment saying we had hit someone.
I'm nor really sure what to do now, and how it has changed my views on suicide in genral. I think he was very selfish as he has ruined lots of other people lives, there were people on the platform that saw what happend. Its not fair to put others in that situation no matter how bad things are.
I don't want to be disintegrated, and I don't want others to be impacted if I decide to follow though, but this has definitely raised some questions.
I'm off work until further notice.
What gets me is I won't even know his name.
Hello, to introduce I work as a conductor for a high speed operator in the uk. I've only been qualified for about 4 weeks.
I allways knew it was a possibility, but to have a fatality within a month of qualifying is very unlucky for me
On Saturday a man jumped in front of my train at a local station aproaching a major city, my train was passing express so passed the platform at speed. I was in the rear cab at the time and saw the guy get smeared across the platform. This has fucked with me a bit.
The train was stoped for about 2 hours while the police cleared things up. Both me and the driver saw it happen, and I had to made the anouncment saying we had hit someone.
I'm nor really sure what to do now, and how it has changed my views on suicide in genral. I think he was very selfish as he has ruined lots of other people lives, there were people on the platform that saw what happend. Its not fair to put others in that situation no matter how bad things are.
I don't want to be disintegrated, and I don't want others to be impacted if I decide to follow though, but this has definitely raised some questions.
I'm off work until further notice.
What gets me is I won't even know his name.
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