foreverlanguish
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- Dec 7, 2024
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Just airing out something that's been bothering me more and more lately. So after I backed out of my suicide attempt in October and before I was admitted to the hospital, my parents or sister decided to give hospital staff (or techs, as we called them) one or both of my suicide notes, and sometime after I got admitted, I remember I was near the front desk when I overheard a tech reading my literal suicide note in front of his colleagues and mocking everything I had written. I knew it was mine because I heard some very passionate and specific wording only I would write. I was pretty shocked and fucking angry to say the least, and tbh am angry at myself rn because of how little I did to report him for doing that to me. I mean I did tell one of the staff and my parents what happened but nothing really came of it. I don't know if he ever knew it was me who wrote it as he treated me alright whenever we spoke but god I hated him internally for what he did. As it's been months since that happened, I don't know if it's too late now to still file a grievance against the hospital and if I should. I did write that note expecting a certain reaction out of people but I didn't know this in particular would happen nor did I want it to. This was a very personal note that I poured my heart into. This just bothers me so much as being in that hospital was one of the worst times of my life.
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