I was firstly naive and innocent, then a bit of a shit when I was younger, but I didn't have a very good role model to look up to and I aped his questionable behaviours before I worked out that they were wrong... I stole things for a while because I wasn't given anything and after getting nowhere being good, I did turn to being not so good because it just seemed to be better to live that way for a while. It seemed like everyone else was rewarded for lying while I was rebuked for being honest, so I thought "fk it!" for a while n did what I pleased - though rarely got away with it lol
Since being an adult, and especially since having a child, I've examined and tweaked my behaviour very carefully over the years and I have tried my damndest to be good; tolerant, kind, understanding, accepting. But since being taken advantage of in my early years through naivety n "being good", there's a steely core to the inside of me that will not be taken advantage of, will not submit to narcissistic manipulation, or be significantly affected by somebody with malicious intent...
Some might see that side of me as almost evil at times, but I believe that a balance between the two is the best way to be ok about yourself in the long run.