
Cage
Unwitting Baas
- Sep 18, 2023
- 112
It makes me feel fake and dishonest, like my suicidal thoughts aren't real but just an impulse that goes in and out. It almost feels like an obligation to be here, that I need to constantly be seeing how bad everyone else has it to reinforce my own desire to CTB as well as keep up to date on how harsh and vile the world is. And so when I have moments of not feeling suicidal and take a brief break from this place, I end up feeling guilty for it. Does anyone else feel this way? Sometimes I don't know what to think of it.