loveable_lamb
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- Jan 20, 2025
- 41
Hey, it's been a bit quiet on my end. Just didn't know what to write about these past days. I've just been bed rotting still waiting on that Kraken account to get verified. Think I'll try some other platform to buy XMR. If anyone can recommend me something (is ChangeNow legit?)
I went outside for the first time since being at home today. I had to go to school for a meeting, walked a bit around the city and went to therapy. I talked to someone else than my usual therapist because she's ill. It was unexpected so a little awkward in the beginning but I have been brutally honest about how I'm feeling regarding death. Hoping I don't get send off to the hospital again, but it doesn't look like it.
While I'm waiting for the crypto stuff (literally going insane), I'll try distracting myself by imagining I need to have this TikTok influencer perfect life for a bit. It gets me out of bed and somewhat productive. Also fully relapsed in my anorexia, not that it ever went away, but I was just less worried about my weight when I thought I'd ctb anytime. And over the past few months I've felt so occupied by my emotions that I felt like I didn't even have headspace to be dieting. I wasn't eating anyways cuz it made me sick... Stepped on the scale this morning and I lost 8kg since September without even thinking about my ed. So yeah, I'm underweight again and I wanna get even skinnier to distract myself from the fact I can't die yet
UPDATE: bought the XMR using ChangeNow/Guardarian. They are on my Monero account, I just have to wait for them to unlock. Something about 10 confirmations in blockchain. It takes around 20-40 minutes apparently.
I went outside for the first time since being at home today. I had to go to school for a meeting, walked a bit around the city and went to therapy. I talked to someone else than my usual therapist because she's ill. It was unexpected so a little awkward in the beginning but I have been brutally honest about how I'm feeling regarding death. Hoping I don't get send off to the hospital again, but it doesn't look like it.
While I'm waiting for the crypto stuff (literally going insane), I'll try distracting myself by imagining I need to have this TikTok influencer perfect life for a bit. It gets me out of bed and somewhat productive. Also fully relapsed in my anorexia, not that it ever went away, but I was just less worried about my weight when I thought I'd ctb anytime. And over the past few months I've felt so occupied by my emotions that I felt like I didn't even have headspace to be dieting. I wasn't eating anyways cuz it made me sick... Stepped on the scale this morning and I lost 8kg since September without even thinking about my ed. So yeah, I'm underweight again and I wanna get even skinnier to distract myself from the fact I can't die yet
UPDATE: bought the XMR using ChangeNow/Guardarian. They are on my Monero account, I just have to wait for them to unlock. Something about 10 confirmations in blockchain. It takes around 20-40 minutes apparently.
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