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UnluckyBastard

UnluckyBastard

Student
Jun 26, 2024
114
I still have my gun. I still practice dry firing. I still can't fucking kill myself because I'm a coward. It's like as soon as it's loaded my mind creates copes just to try and not do it. I hate my human survival instincts. I wish there was a way to turn them off
 
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Kalista

Failed hard to pull the trigger - Now using SN
Feb 5, 2023
385
i feel you

i'm sorry
 
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justwannadip

it's still raining
May 27, 2024
284
I feel you. I really just need to go
 
legoshi

legoshi

Member
Sep 3, 2024
78
Bought SN a month or so ago. Still haven't had the courage to do it. I find evey little thing I can to hold on, I'm like oh maybe one day this or one day that will happen and make me happy. Yet, there have been years of experiences that let me know that's never going to happen. Yet, I'm still grasping for hope.
 
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deathproof17

Member
Oct 26, 2024
66
A part of you isn't suicidal and wants to live. That's not a bad thing. You have things in life worth living for.
 
L'absent

L'absent

À ma manière 🪦
Aug 18, 2024
834
It's normal, you're just scared. Change scares people.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,799
I still have my gun. I still practice dry firing. I still can't fucking kill myself because I'm a coward. It's like as soon as it's loaded my mind creates copes just to try and not do it. I hate my human survival instincts. I wish there was a way to turn them off
Same for me
 
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Flippintogo

Member
Sep 18, 2024
26
Had thr gun pointed to my head numerous times. Never could muster the nerve. I end up loading it, pointing it to my head, and then pulling the trigger to the point of resistance. SI then kicks in. Massively. Like everything tells me to stop and rethink it through. I hate that I'm such a coward.
 
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antony

Member
Nov 16, 2024
34
I got N (pentobarbital) and still can't. Some of us have to really hit rock bottom.
 
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TragedyBornCrimson

TragedyBornCrimson

I accept my eternal punishment
Oct 19, 2023
245
Shooting yourself is terrifying, not doing it is understandable
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Student
Mar 18, 2024
198
I can totally relate, I'm in the same situation with SN. One day I'm sure I'll hit rock bottom and find the fortitude. Existence till then sure isn't enjoyable for me.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,799
I still have my gun. I still practice dry firing. I still can't fucking kill myself because I'm a coward. It's like as soon as it's loaded my mind creates copes just to try and not do it. I hate my human survival instincts. I wish there was a way to turn them off
I meant i'm scared i won't die and remain alive if i were more sure i was going to die shooting myself i would do it.
 
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been__ready

Member
Nov 25, 2024
97
I feel your pain. I am sitting at the airport after flying across the country to CTB and failing for the second time.. it is an absolutely terrible feeling…

Especially when you've been so intent on saying goodbye. Have you considered another method? I'm now looking into SN..
 

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