I have a long medical history I won't go into here, but a few years ago I realized: most people are bad at their jobs, and doctors are people. Doctors know shit and are not interested in the business of helping people. They want to 'cure' you - give you stitches when you have a split lip - they do not want to help.
I 100% believe gut issues - caused by undiagnosed autoimmune conditions, triggered by illnesses, or borne out of years of being worn down with unnatural, bad food (at least in the west) or environmental shit - can lead to depression / anger / suicidal ideation. I got E.coli last year and have not been the same since. I went off gluten and dairy for 5 months to deal with some of my constant problems and after four months, i felt better than I had ever felt in months. I was still having GI issues though and needed to have a colonoscopy, which I thought would be fine, but instead it kicked off this horrible panic attack cycle because I got bizarrely paranoid that I was going to wake up during the procedure or the doctor was going to sexually assault me while I was under. The panic attacks and anxiety basically led me to giving up being gluten & dairy free (if it hadn't also been the holidays I might not have abandoned my path) and this past month, I've been darker and more suicidal than I've ever been. Truly, I did not know how bad the ideation could get. A few weeks ago, I seriously felt possessed.
My sister is a nurse in a GI clinic and has recently gotten concerned for me (it's a long story but I'm at least glad she is showing some care towards me after years of telling me to "pray my depression away" - you can fuck right off with that) and has been going to these talks about gut issues and gluten causing depression and anger. Also, another thing I just saw that they're looking into finally is the link between inflammation in the body and depression/anger/mood disorders - I guess they never thought the brain could get inflamed, but they have realized that it can, and perhaps that is one source for all this (makes perfect sense to me). I had chronic pain for years (I've had multiple back surgeries) and the only thing that brought me relief was going off gluten and dairy - and I didn't even go off them for my back! I had given up on my back ever feeling better.
Anyway, long rambling post again. Maybe try going off gluten for a while and see if it helps. I'm still not sure if dairy affected my mind but it certainly affected my skin, and I live in LA and am stil very vain so I should go off it again. But all I feel like eating is chocolate Haagen Dazs all the time.
I think I'm going to try the clean eating again but it takes a long while to work, and it makes the rest of life very complicated. If you're not out and about in the world it might be easier though.
Sure, I've tried that... this week has been fruits, fiber mufins, eggs, and subway.... no relief.... I cant narrow more than that...
I have thought maybe im intolerant to Stevia and so called sweetners.... havent brought my honey to work, so I can substitute that
The easiest way is to cut out one food at a time. Whole 30 can be too hard for some people, especially depending where you live if you have access to good foods, but here's some info if you want to read about it:
https://whole30.com/whole30-program-rules/
Try just sticking with fruits, vegetables, protein, and rice or quinoa for a month and see if it helps anything. If cutting out all wheat products is too much, try cutting out flour products and/or antyhing "enriched" or "fortified" with vitamins — a lot of people cannot break down synthetic vitamins and they end up building up in your bloodstream and causing problems, sometimes not until something else triggers a cascade of health issues (an illness, stress, etc.) I have a genetic mutation that contributes, but those tests are very expensive, I only know because in 2013 I had a blood clot and health insurance and had to get all the genetic tests and they found a few mutations. And, despite having the mutation, it didn't cause any problems for me until after I got E.coli last year.
I mean, our environment has changed so much in the last 100 years, it makes perfect sense that our bodies haven't evolved to adapt better at the same pace. It's only been a couple generations since the industrial revolution. Not enough time to adjust. All the nutritionists/dieticians say to avoid sugar and sugar alcohols as much as possible, but fuck, it's one of very few legal drugs and that's really hard.
No matter what, I hope you find relief soon. <3
