willitpass
Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
- Mar 10, 2020
- 3,088
Having been inpatient/residential for coming up on 12 weeks now (and this is far from my first time in treatment, just my first time in a few years), my biggest take away is that we are treated like children. I was in and out of the hospital as a teenager as well, and my adult experiences have been the same as when I was 13. You are expected to never take a day off to rest. You are expected to go do art, play games, eat at art times, shower at set times, go to bed at set times. If you have an ask for more autonomy it has to go through levels of care. And you cannot sign yourself out if they deem you a threat, or they will attempt to get someone to get a conservatorship over you. Im sick of being treated like a child for not wanting to live my own life. Have I not fought hard enough? Have I not proven that I've tried hard enough? I'm so tired. I am not a child. I want to be allowed to let go. Instead I'm carted off to sit in groups and participate like an elementary schooler, go to lunch with everyone else to get my meal on a tray like an elementary schooler, be in line of sight at all times like a child, ask for extra time in my room like a child. Keep fighting like I'm not a competent adult capable of making my own decisions.
